Hello, My LOVE

NINE

It broke me, destroyed me. I can't like a man who's married. What the fuck. 

I needed to leave the penthouse to breathe and to find calm. I can't stay here like his mistress. He told me that he's not married. I never read any news about his marriage. I have worked for him for almost a year and never heard of any wife. The only reason why I assumed he's married is because he never had any girlfriends and he was in his early 30s. 

I was sitting there naked, only covered in a blanket and on the verge of crying. Reminded me of the time I found Adrian in bed with Emily. 

Emily, she had her eyes on Adrian for as long as I can remember. She wanted him and Adrian wanted me. I was invited to Adrian's farewell party. I never wanted to go but...

"You need to come. come on. You're his biggest cheerleader and if you're not there he will feel sad," Luke said.

"Luke, I can't. It's going to be super awkward. We just broke up. I can't see him right now." I almost begged. Because I couldn't. I felt like killing myself. It felt like the worst cramp and instead of my stomach, it was happening in my heart. 

"If you ever loved him then you will. He deserves it. Please Rya," Luke was so persistent that I had to go. 

I shouldn't have.

The party was good. Drunk, dancing, happy friends all over the place. It was a house party at Luke's bachelor pad. I was sitting with Adrian. Although we broke up he was behaving as if we were still together and It did something to me.

I felt that maybe, maybe we could still stay connected when he's in Dubai. We can visit each other and keep this relationship going.

He took my hand and asked me to come to the balcony. I did. 

"you're having fun?" he asked.

"kinda, what about you?" I replied with a smile.

"Love, I am going to miss you so much. You were literally my happiness and I'm leaving my happiness behind. I am not sure if it's worth it" He said with a small sad smile.

" I am gonna miss you too but I'm sure this will be worth it, maybe you will find more happiness there. I've heard the women there are very pretty" I said.

"Pretty? Maybe. But I know there is no one like you. I will be heartbroken if you decide to date some idiot after me. You know like Jay or someone? I will personally come back and kill him. Okay?" he said jokingly. Jay was my dorky neighbor who stared at me as if he loved me but he never said anything. 

"How did you know? I was planning to propose to him after this party. I think I love him" I replied.

"Hey! Only I can love you. And only I can call you Love, I don't allow anyone else to do it. I'm a black belt so everyone should stay in their lane". he said smiling and showing off his biceps. 

"hahahaha I'm gonna miss you a lot Adrian," I said almost with tears in my eyes. 

He hugged me and whispered, "I will miss you a lot more Love."

We parted because his friends were calling him. It was an hour past midnight and I decided to leave. 

"Go with them. I'm gonna go back home too. Dad's not too well. So, I need to check up on him." I told him.

"What happened to him? Do you want me to come with you?" he asked with a worried tone. 

"No no. Enjoy your party. He's fine. Just some cough. I'll handle it. Bye, Adrian." I said and left the party. 

At home, my father was sleeping peacefully. I decided to eat some leftovers and while I was heating it I looked at the moon. Looking at the moon, I always think about the happy moments, and how all my happy moments are memories. 

After eating, I decided to sleep but not before checking all our friends' Instagram stories. But I couldn't find my phone anywhere. It was not in my bag and I remember putting it there but it wasn't. So, I called it with my landline.

Somebody picked up, "Hey!," I said.

"heeyyooaa" somebody said. 

" Hi, It's my phone where is it?" I asked.

"In my hand" they replied.

"Okay, where's your hand?" 

"On my body."

"Where's your body?"

"In a room"

"Where is the room?"

"Right next to the bathroom and I'm gonna go pee now. Bye!"

This was frustrating, to say the least, but at least I know my phone is back at Luke's place.

Even though I would love to know who was on call with me I hoped they left my phone in the room instead of taking it to the loo.

It was almost 3, but thankfully Luke lives very close to my apartment. 

I reached the house and started to walk to the back where the bathroom was. The party was dead now. Few people were sleeping here and there. Someone was in the kitchen talking. But I walked straight to the bathroom and opened the door to the right.

Five people were sleeping on the queen-sized bed and one on the ground. Funny sight for sure but I hoped my phone was not on the bed. I spent 10 minutes looking for it but it was nowhere. 

I decided to move to the next bedroom and opened the door. The vision shattered me in more ways than it should have. 

Adrian was lying on the bed with Emily riding him. The moment I opened the door, they both looked at me. Adrian was holding Emily's breast and she was almost mid-orgasm.

"I'm sorry," I said in a whisper and closed the door. 

Suddenly the bathroom door opened and a guy came out with my phone in his hand. I literally snatched it from his hand and started walking very fast when Adrian came out of the room.

"RYA. RYA. You need to listen to me" He yelled.

I was almost out of the house when he held my arm. 

"It's not what you think. I was not I don't know how" he was rambling.

"It's okay. It is." I said in a calm voice. I couldn't let my emotions run me over now. 

"I didn't mean to do it," He said almost disappointed.

"It's your life, Adrian. We aren't together anymore. You didn't have to explain anything. You- you didn't cheat on me, we AREN'T in a relationship" I said with conviction but my heart knew that I was broken forever.

And I turned around and walked back to my place because If I had stayed I would have wailed loud enough to startle everyone in the apartment. 

But when I reached back, I closed my door and waited for the waterworks. They never came. My tears were dried up without ever leaving my eyes. 

I felt the same kind of pain today. I always labeled Emily as the dick. A bitch who destroyed whatever I had with Adrian knowing I loved him. Although in my head I knew it was no one's mistake. 

Today I felt like Emily. I felt like a bitch and a homewrecker. 

I got up, put on my clothes, and left his house.