Not Just a Fan | Billie Eilish

VI

⚠️Mention of abuse and rape!!!⚠️

I pull out of the parking garage with tears streaming down my face. My vision getting blurry each second. I don't care, I just have to get away.

I must have been going a 82 in a 60 as i was passing by every single car. I didn't even notice that I was heading straight for a truck until it was too late.

I heard a bang and everything went black.

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I awake to bright lights and what looks like a hospital room. What happened?

I look around to see the room completely empty. Great, i got hurt and no one is here to see me. Just great.

Honestly Im too tired for this bullshit. I close my eyes and drift off to sleep once again. This time shedding a tear.

I woke up once again but this time to hear crying and talking. Almost as if someone was talking to me. I didn't fully open my eyes but enough to see who it was. Billie.

I kept listening to what she was saying before making any sudden movement. "I am so sorry Soph, I should have stopped you from driving off. This is all my fault." She says with guilt in her voice before choking on her own tears.

I squeeze her hand to let her know that I am here and listening and she shoots her head up to look at me. Her eyes all puffy and red like she's been crying for days. How long has it been?

"Billie? What happened? What day is it?" I start to question looking around frantically.

"First off you're in the hospital, after you snapped at me you drove off and got into a car accident... That was about 9 days ago. You've been out of it ever since." She explains to me still clearly crying.

"Well then why are you crying?" I ask a little confused. I'm fine so why is she crying? I didn't die.

"This is all my fault. I shouldn't have let you drive off when you were crying. Something was bound to happen." She confesses with a sigh.

"Billie it's not your fault. Alessia made me extremely angry and i just broke down." I tell her while looking down at my ugly hospital gown.

She sat and talked with me for a few hours when I told her to get out so she can go home and sleep. Although in those few hours, Alessia hasn't come visit me at all. Not even the few days I was asleep. Actually, it's fine i didn't want her here anyway.

What she did was unforgivable and if she wants me to forgive her then she will have to do something godly and i doubt that will happen.

I was about to doze off to sleep when I heard a ping. I looked at the side table to see Billie left her phone.

I don't want to be the one to snoop but i just had the urge to look at who texted her. I picked up her phone to see who texted her and lo and behold... Alessia.

I furrow my eyebrows as I try to guess the password of Billie's phone. I type in 3-1-9-4 and it unlocks it straight away. I knew she was obsessed with Justin Bieber but never thought his birthday was her password.

I go into their messages and start reading them one by one. It was mostly of Alessia talking about how much of a fan she is and how she loves her blah blah blah until I got to the beginning of this week..

Alessia <3

Hey baby hru?

Hey Sia i'm good. U?