Not Just a Fan | Billie Eilish

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Sophey's Pov:

It's been about 4 days ever since I made up with Billie. So far, it's been great. She comes over my dorm time to time and hangs out with me and Alessia. Other times she'll call me and sing to me while I fall asleep.

Everyday I have been catching feelings even more. I know I shouldn't as I know Billie is 100% straight but you can't help who you fall in love with. Can you?

I've never met her family like she has with mine. I mean, my only family is Alessia just like I am only hers. Although I never told Billie that. I haven't found the right time.

Part of me wishes she was gay and that she would like me but the other part of me wants her to stay straight. Or at least closeted. Who knows what everyone will think of her. I don't worry about the fans, but the paparazzi and the press is something to 100% worry about.

It could ruin her career or even her mental and physical health. I wouldn't risk it if I were her.

Alessia has been going crazy after the one day of Billie walking in unannounced to come see me. Honestly, she has become more of a fan faster than I've seen anyone else hook up in an empty room alone.

It's honestly getting annoying at this point. Constantly talking about Billie and ranting about how she's the best human being on earth. I can't lie, she is the best human being but even I'm not that obsessed. She acts more of the new fans that think they know everything about her.

I doubt Sia even knows what type of burrito Billie likes to get at Taco Bell. Actually, I'm going to go test this theory right now. Just you wait.

I walk up to Sia who is on her phone looking through Billie's insta. "Hey Sia I have a question about Billie." I smile as she looks up at me.

"Ooooh okay shoot!" She says excitedly while sitting up on the couch and hopping around a few times.

"Okay, what burrito does Billie like to get at Taco Bell?" I ask her with a serious tone.

"Hmm I don't know, a billrito? Get it! Bill then rito! Ha!" She says while cracking herself up.

Pathetic. This is a simple known fact.

I roll my eyes and walk back to my room about to text Billie to come over.

I text her and wait for a reply. After about 10 seconds I get a text back saying she's on her way. I reply with a 'can't wait' then set my phone on my nightstand while turning the office on.

A few moments I hear the door open and Billie walks into the dorm. I get up from bed and walk out to where Alessia is hugging Billie.

Ew.

"Alright Sia get off of her." I say while fake chuckling to make sure I don't look annoyed. Sia is acting like a complete pick me girl and i'm not living for it.

She eventually gets off of Billie and I grab her hand. "Cmon let's go watch the office!" I say excitedly while dragging her to my room.

We made it to my room and I turn around to shut the door when Alessia walks in with a bowl of popcorn. Tf does she think she's doing?

"Um Sia what are you doing?" I say with an uncomfortable tone. Honestly I am extremely embarrassed. She's acting like a younger sibling who wants to hang out with the older siblings friends to be 'cooler'.

"I'm here to watch the office of course! I can't wait to see my cute little mikey!" She says with a high pitch baby voice causing Billie to laugh.

I scoff and let her in before sitting in my bed. Sia sits right in between me and Billie causing me ti be on the edge of the bed almost falling off.

I turn the office on and lay back on the headboard contemplating on why I had Billie come over knowing Sia was going to act like this.

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It's been about an hour of watching the office and it's been absolutely hell. Billie and Sia weren't even watching it after the first episode. They were laughing and whispering things into each others ears.

Billie had Alessia on her lap with her hand draped over Sia's waist. Sia knows I quite literally love Billie and she's pulling this shit? Surely Billie isn't doing this on purpose as we said to put the whole thing behind us.

Unless Billie is gay and is falling for Sia. No that can't be. Alessia would never do that. I'm honestly surprised Sia hasn't kissed Billie yet.

Their foreheads are practically touching and their legs are intertwined with each others.

I roll my eyes as I get up to get a glass of water. Well, that's what i told them. What I'm really doing is going to the bathroom to throw up.

I run to the bathroom as soon as I leave the room and hold my hair back as all hell breaks loose. I start to throw up so much that I feel as if i was going to faint. Thankfully I didn't.

After I threw up I just starred at the wall for a solid 10 minutes completely zoned out. I snapped out of it and walked back to my room to see Billie giving Alessia her number.

Great just great.

Billie soon leaves and as soon as I shut the door I was immediately welcomed with Sia talking non stop about how she has a huge crush on Billie and that she might like her back. How she got her number and thinks they will get married blah blah blah all that boring stuff.

I never knew Sia could be this fake until now. Everyday I would talk about Billie, but not like how sia does. Sia makes it seem obsessive and that Billie can only be hers. It takes the fun out of being a fan.

"Omg and what if we have cute little babies that are basically mini versions of Billie that would be so adorable!" Sia rants making me blow up.

"Sia can you stop thinking about yourself for one second! You know I love Billie and yet you still continue to take her away from me and act like you're the one one who can be around her! I am sick of you being so fucking selfish all the time Alessia! You were basically acting like a pick me this whole night! All up on her, sitting in between us, giggling and whispering! Like God Sia wake up and start to realize that not everything is about you! You are so fucking selfish!" I yell at her before grabbing my keys from the counter and walking out the door making sure to slam it shut.

I am tired of acting like it's okay for her to do that. What kind of friend tries to take someone's crush right in front of them? Apparently Alessia.

As I walk out I see Billie getting into her car. I guess I was pretty loud as she looked behind her and looked straight at me. "Hey you alright Soph?" She asks looking concerned. Soph? That's a new one.

"I'm perfectly fine Billie just fuck off!" I say back angrily. I do regret telling her to fuck off but I guess I was so angry that I didn't know what I was going to say.

She looks at me in shock and watches as I get into my car and break down completely. The tears streaming down my face every chance they get. I started the car and drove off.

I just need to get away