introduction
“STOP!” i screamed at my dad as he was beating me. He pulled me by the arm and threw me on the couch. “you worthless peice of scum.” he yelled at me. I started to cry. “pathetic” he says to his self and starts to walk away. Once i hear him walk into his room and shut his door i start to cry. “Why is this happening to me? Why did she have to leave? Why does he hate me so much? Why am i so alone in the world?” i thaught to myself but the one thing that i kept thinking in my head through out the rest of the night was “why am I still alive?”
Hey there im Sophie. Im 14 living with just my abusive dad in Alberta, my mom left me and my dad when i was 3 for some rich guy. Which i dont blame her for leaving my dad, but why didn't she take me with her. My dad seems to think it was because i was never planed and i was a mistake but i dont want to believe that. As you can probably already tell im that lonely girl that sits in the back of the room with no friends, But i dont look like those “emo” stereotype of people, The family that i actually talk to say that i look like the popular cheerleading stereotype because of my natural bleech blond hair, blue eyes and skinny figure. But trust me im not. I have a skinny figure because i barely eat. Im not anerexic or anything its just that if i want to eat I have to fend for my self.
I have no brothers or sisters, and all of my family lives in the states and barely ever visit because they hate my dad so much. But what ever im not that kind of social person so i dont mind if they come and visit or not. But i wouldn't mind if i had a brother or sister so i wouldn't be going threw all of this by my self. I also have no friends to talk to about all of this, so when i go to school its all about the work. My routine consists of getting myself out of bed every morning, makeing my self brekfeast, going to school, coming home, doing any homework i have, making myself anything we have for dinner, then going to bed. That usually happens everyday. Then on weekends i have to work so i can pay for groceries since my dad can barely afford to pay for the rent i have to pay for the groceries.
I dont have a boyfriend either, iv never dated, or kissed someone. I have never been to a party, cause no one ever talks to me. But i dont mind because i know if someone did try to talk to me i probably wouldn't beable to talk back because im way to shy. All though there is one guy i wish i could talk to, his name is kyle. Hes new to the school, and hes in my english class. He is so cute, hes got brown hair that swoops perfectly onto his gorgouse face, and hes got chocolate brown eyes that i could just stare into for hours, and from the looks of him hes probably got perfect abs. But i dont know why I even think about him that way, he would never ever in a million years ever like me, No one will ever like me, im just not a likeable kind of person. I have always been hated my whole life and thats how its going to be for the rest of my life, Im just going to have to live with it. It sure would be awesome if he did like me back though, but its never going to happen. Well i think thats all u need to know about me, im hated by everyone, including my family, i have no friends, and i will never be happy in my life. Yep that about sums it up. Welcome to my life.
