The Girl They Met Online [Editing]

Chapter 17: Anger. Hurt. Crying. Misery.

Liam's POV

This needs to stop.

The Anger

The Hurt

The Crying

The Misery

I turn back around, and walk in the room. Riley runs to me and hugs me, "Liam, I'm sorry. I just thought things were too much for you, and I didn't want to add a whole 'nother weight on your shoulders."

I sigh, "Riley, I want what's best for you, and if you think that keeping something big like away from me was for my own good then, I'll have to deal with it." I turn to Harry, "And if you went behind my back to help my girlfriend with something then I'll have to build a bridge and get over it."

Riley looks at me confused, "I don't know if you're being sarcastic or if you are serious..." I look at the ground, "I'm sorry, but..."

She frowns, "You need some time, don't you? Wow, you are so selfish do you know that? I have been here for you since day one and if this is how you repay me, then you can have all the time you need, it won't change what I am going to say right now. I'm done with our relationship."

I look at her, I am not angry, I am not going to cry but I want her to hear me out. "Riley, I have been in to hell and back. I have done things and said things that were wrong, but I don't think I have been selfish. From the time I was heart broken by the girl who I thought was the love of my life, that when it started, but then you came along and made me feel like life mattered, that I have a reason to love but during that time you were in love with someone, which crushed me even more. I wanted so bad to have you look at me like you did Zayn. Then the situation with Zayn and Perrie came up, and I was heartbroken that someone could hurt you like that, and even worse you almost died right in front of my eyes that day. I cried over your bed for hours, and hours blaming myself that if I hadn't invited you over then you would've been happy and awake, even if you'd be with Zayn, you'd still be awake and walking."

She looks at me, "You don't have to explain yourself, it's not going to change..."

I shake my head, "I'm not finished. When you saw me at your bedside, and you told me you loved me, that was the best moment of my life. And at the moment, I promised myself that no one would get in the way of that. Then...then you broke that trust and kissed Zayn. You don't know how much that hurt me, it hurt really bad. Zayn apologized, but I was so angry at him I ignored him, but I forgave you because I love you. That was wrong of me to do, ignore my best friend...no, my brother because of love."

Zayn stands up, "Liam, it's okay. You don't need to, if Riley doesn't understand I do." I look back at Riley, "No, I need to finish. That day, when Zayn drowned, I forgot everything, and my only goal was to save him, and let him know that I was not angry anymore. When I saw he sadness in his eyes, when he told me he missed talking to me, I felt like the worst person in the entire world. And that wasn't it, when I went to McDonald's and saw Danielle and almost kissed her, that was going to be a huge mistake in the waiting. I realized that you are amazing, and that no one should get in the way of us. And being there when you took you first steps after the accident was a huge moment in not only your life, but in mine. That's when I thought everything would fall into place, but it didn't it just went down hill. I wanted to fully end things with Danielle, but things went wrong she kissed me, I didn't even kiss her back but everyone thought I cheated on you, and everyone started hating me. But I guess it was stupid of me to see her in the first place. So I deserved all the hate, and everyone being angry at me, but I don't understand why, when I saw you kiss Zayn it wasn't a big deal, but when you all saw the article, I got all the hate."

Zayn sighs, "Liam, I--I'm sorry for all the stuff you have been through..." Everyone is quiet, and looking at me, I want to finish what I was saying so I take a deep breath and continue. "I decided that being alive wasn't an option anymore, but I guess that was another selfish decision. But having everyone hate you, everyone ignore you, and having no one by your side just made me feel that way. So I decided to end it all. When I woke up in the hospital bed, I was pissed. I was pissed that I failed once again. So I tried something, something no one knows besides Zayn...I tried jumping out the window, to make sure that I wouldn't fail again."