One direction, taking care of each other

Louis depressed (part one)

⚠️Trigger warning!⚠️
This story includes self-harm, eating disorders, suicidal thoughts, and things that can feel uncomfortable or triggering for people to read! Please don't read this if you are sensitive and don't do these things to yourself, loves! You are so pretty, and you are worth the world! Even though I don't know you, I love you so much!

And I DON'T hate Louis! He is FABLOUIS and I love him so so so much! 💙🥹 He deserves the world and his voice is so lovely that I don't sing under his parts in one direction songs just to enjoy his voice! ❤️🥰

Louis's POV

We were just finished with a big consert, and now I was sitting on the bathroom floor, almost drowning in my own tears. I was sobbing so hard it was a struggle to breathe.

The tweets were running through my head. Just hate, hate, and more hate!

"Louis is so ugly, wth?" 😂

"Why is Louis even in one direction? One direction would be better without him!" 😒

"Has Louis gain weight? He looks so fat, he should stop eating, haha!" 🤭

But those weren't the ones that hurt the most! This hurt like hell!

"Omg! Louis can't sing, his voice is so annoying listening to, he ruins the songs when he's singing! 🤮 I feel so bad for the boys who have to have Louis as their bandmate!"

And believe it or not, that wasn't the worst one either! There was one that felt like a knife stabbed me in the chest.

"Louis doesn't deserve to live. It surprises me he hasn't killed himself yet. He should totally do it soon!" 🙄

A knock on the door interrupted my awful thoughts. "Louis? Are you finished soon? You have been in there for ages!" It was Liam's voice.

"Yes, I'm done soon." I said, my voice cracking from all the crying.

"You alright?" He asked with concern in his voice.

"Yeah, yeah, just an upset stomach, nothing to worry about!" I answered, trying to sound convincing.

"Are you sick, Louis?" He sounded even more concerned now!

"No, just ate something bad, don't worry!"

"Okay, come when you are ready, we are planning on having a movie night since we have no work to do right now!" He sounded more happy than worried now.

"Okay." I answered, and I heard him walk away.

I took my phone up out of my pocket and opened Twitter again. and my heart nearly stopped when I saw the comment.
"Hope Louis is doing self harm. He deserves the pain!"

My heartbeat calmed down as I thought, "Maybe this is true? Maybe I deserve it?" I stood up and looked myself in the mirror. "Omg, they are right! No wonder why they wrote that!"

I walked out of the bathroom, I didn't see the point in sitting there just crying, so I decided to join the boys instead.

"Hi Louis!" Harry said happily, but his smile faided away as soon as he saw my bloodshot eyes. "Louis, have you been crying?" He asked as he stood up to give me a tight hug. He pulled out of the hug. After some seconds, he pulled out of the hug and asked, "What's wrong?" He looked me straight into my eyes.

"He has a stomach ache." Liam answered before I had a chance say anything.

"Aww, Louis. Do you wanna lay in my lap, and I can rub your belly?" Harry said with sympathy in his voice.

I nodded. I had to hide that it was something more serious. It is better that they think it's a stomach bug!

We watched a movie while Harry rubbed my stomach with soothing sircles. It actually was really comforting! But then I remembered. I am fat! What if Harry can feel it now. I stood up, maybe a little too fast.