My comfort, Dream team

Life Is different

George's POV

It has been 4 months since the meet. Ever since I met Sapnap and Dream things have changed. I participated in online classes however I didn't talk. My teacher did make sure to have one on ones with me though so I could easily catch up on what I have missed. I am glad that he has done that though because if not then I would be realistically years behind.

Sapnap and Dream have stayed in school and we call almost every night. I've still not talked in a call, however that will soon change. I don't want to do it quite yet but I want to do it soon because of another thing that has happened.

I started a YouTube channel however none of the videos have my voice in it. They are just time lapses of things and just random clips of me doing PvP or coding.

I do want to officially do a voice reveal to my very small fan base soon because I think they deserve it. In order to do that o have to voice reveal to both dream and Sapnap. 

I feel safe around them and I feel like I can talk to them about anything however my fear doesn't let me and takes the best of me and I completely freeze up and start to panic. That never ends well because it mostly ends up with me screaming and crying. Then it will lead back to dad. I can't say anything to my family though because yet again my stupid dumb fear prevents me from sharing my feelings because it makes me feel like an absolute burden which yet again is really annoying. I sometimes feel like its the best for me though because if I say my feelings then people will see how messed up I am which I DO NOT WANT AT ALL.

Today my classes ended early and I done my one on one session with my teacher which was really fun. I still had editing to do and I needed to film a video with bothe dream and Sapnap. Although I don't use my voice in my videos they do. So their voices are in mine which my fans find weird but I don't really care because it's my videos.

I always struggle with editing though because I just can't do it. I mean I can do it I just can't be bothered which is an ongoing joke between me bad sapnap and Dream. 

Speaking of which me and bad have daily calls and I actually talk. I talk to him more than my family. I don't have irl friends so o obviously talk to him more than any of them. I talk to him more than I have ever talked to anyone. He feels like my dad however in another body because he is the exact same. He is caring funny responsible and he respects my boundaries. He always helps me with anything I need help with and he is just there if I ever need to talk.

I eventually got back into editing this video which I was excited for because it was funny to watch. It was Dream and Sapnap trying out one of my codes for the first ever time which I was very nervous but very excited for because I think they would like my codes however I have never ever coded for anyone so this could go all wrong and this might not work. That was something that crossed my mind when going back over all the cod. I checked the code overall 13 times to make sure I missed nothing and that it was fully functional.

I did mess with them at bits In the video which was extremely funny because of their reactions. Normally I wouldn't mess with my friends however they are different. I always want to mess with them and annoy them which makes me think that our friendship was destined to be. They have supported me the whole way and without them I wouldn't have a channel and I wouldn't be making my younger self very proud and making my long time dream come true.

I am so proud of them both also. Because Dream and Sap have both started their very own YouTube channels and they are doing extremely well. I'm super proud of them. Also dream and sapnap are both doing very well In school. In fact dream graduated with B's and C's in most of his classes but that's down to his ADHD. 

Although that did unfortunately prevent him from getting better grades he still done very well considering he struggles to concentrate. He used to get to call someone if he was struggling and he could wear headphones so sometimes he would call me in the middle of his lessons and sometimes it would be sap. It all depended on the time. No matter the day and if we were both in class we would still answer which we had permission for saying dream couldn't concentrate. We found it weird that sap got permission but ME. Like I'm not been In the same country as them which I thought the teachers would bring up but they didn't.

I made sure to have my phone on Do not disturb however both dream and sap go through it saying that dream might need to calm for him to concentrate.

Sometimes during these calls he would mute himself and listen to me and Sapnap's conversation or he would also just listen to our learning. Sometimes he would walk out the class and just talk to us and sometimes we would talk back to him.

Sapnap was in his last year of college and I had 2 years left of uni before I could graduate. I was looking forward to that. That meant that I would be able to focus on my career and not worry about any of us being in school.

This was an amazing time of my life. 

Meeting them really did change my life for the better...

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