DON'T DIE [Su Hyeok]

chapter 14

( i am taking leaves for so many days I just got suddenly busy with my school and all but don't worry I will try as much as I can to post regularly)

Lia's family started to worry about her

She wasn't talking to anyone she didn't even go to school for almost a week.

Nobody could understand what was happening with her

Ms park decided to not budge into her matter and let her be herself and recover from everything.

But ms park's husband was worried about Lia since he saw her like that.

Days went by Lia was not talking with anyone or even with her friends,she was usually a bubbly kind of girl.

Who would annoy in a kind way, but now she doesn't even go out of her room.

Whenever Ms park or her husband went into her to check up on her, she would just be sleeping.

Ms park thought it was enough and check out what was wrong with her

As she went into her room she saw her crying with a pic of su hyeok, she thought she was missing him.

So she decided call him over and made him talk with her but that didn't turn out well, su hyeok said he didn't wanted to talk with her.

Ms park decided to talk to Lia by herself

But when she got into Lia's room it was smelling bad, as Lia was sleeping

After Lia woke Ms park went to her and asked her what was wrong with her

Lia just said to leave her alone and not bother checking on her.

Ms park and her husband decided to just give her some space.

LIA'S POV

Ms park asked me what was wrong with me today

And to be honestly I myself don't know what was happening with me

You know that feeling when you can't feel anything like you aren't even overthinking now

Everything around just feels fake

Like nothing is real the things surrounding me my friends, my family or even myself

I think it's all fake and they are just acting and something is seriously wrong with me.

You guys think you can understand what I am going through fucking no

I feel like I am trapped inside a cage and the things around me are all made out of cardboard

I think i think I am starting to get crazy right, I think so too

I feel like it's such a shame that I turned out to be like this

You guys think you know what anxiety is let me tell you

What anxiety really is ,

I feel like every fucking other people is judging and no matter what I can't let go of that feeling

Disappointing my family, myself everything

When you tried to do hardwork but then you just fuck up and you can't fix your shit because you are a worthless piece of shit.

Like fuck you I don't even think I am real ohh did i say I am already dead no right

I feel like every one is acting that they like me and I am just a burden to them

I am just a annoying kid whose family also doesn't like her

I can't do a fucking thing right what do you think I am gonna do be happy and jump here and there

Saying wow life is so beautiful oh my god my fucking ass

I tired of this fucking life and I know there are people whose life are more worse then me

But I don't fucking care about that I care about myself what's happening with me.

I know that you guys are thinking I am such a piece of shit

But did you liked every other person around you,

Like I am a fucking people pleaser, i feel guilty for things I didn't even do but here i am.

I have to kind to everyone and please them even though i don't like them.

Do you even fucking know I get bullied by my best friend every day no matter what she has to do something which makes me want to cry.

You know when my parents were going through a divorce I used to call her and cry.

But then recently when I asked her when did you found me annoying she then said when you used to call me and cry out.

You were a fucking wierdo at that time.

And you think I am okay ohh hell yea even though everything is okay in my life I am not okay.

I am just tired of this I just wanna FUCKING DIEE.

(I am sorry I ranted out this much because some of this story of lia is my life too not everything though take care

Hope you liked this chapter)