I Think I Have Something To Confess

The Locker Room

GOAAALLLLLL
I jump up, "YESSS!"
Jumpng up and down, up and down.
I run off the bleechers as my hair blows in the wind behind me, "you did great!" I run and hug Aaron so fast he falls back a bit, "And its only your first game???"
"I'm not that good." He says as he smiles hugging me back.
I roll my eyes beacuse he knows he is, I wish I was good at something maybe I would feel more worth?
"Woahhh you can't come in here!" He says with a smile.
I look up, Boys locker room.
"Oh, yeah. Sorry." I say blushing hard. I walk across the hall and sit on a bench, still feeling the embarassment.
I kick my feet back and forth watching them hit the bench each time.
Ding, Ding.
I put my head back and close my eyes and reach into my pocket, checking my phone I see,
MOM Sent you a message.
I click on it,
MOM: Audrey, can you get home please? I need you to babysit your brother.
I put my head back and close my eyes, "No, I can't do that. No."
Aaron seems like he isn't coming out soon, I have to go in.
I look to my left... Then my right, slowly open the door and walk in.
"Aaron?" I say calling
"AAAaaaaaaarooooooonnn!"
"What?? Audrey what are you doing in here?" I heard the shower turn off and he comes out with just a towel.
I feel my face getting hot again.
"Are you going to.."
"Oh. Yeah. Me? Oh. Well my mom texted me I think she wants me to hurry up." I say my ears now getting hot.
"Why are you talking like that?" He says smiling.
"Well Idk maybe look down and see what you're wearing??" I say putting both or my arms out pointing at the towel.
"Well maybe of you was just like me you wouldn't feel so weird." He smiled pulling at my crop top.
I slowly lift it up, as he helps me, he turns me around and presses me on him, putting his arms around me to unbucle my shorts.
He lifts me up as they fall off then turns me back around.
"Seeee? is that better? Less weird?" He says holding my waist still.
"Not yet." I finsh taking everything off and he drops his towel, I get a little nervous but push it off.
He picks me up and places me on him, I let off a small noise then cover my mouth.
I. Have. To. Stay. Quiet.
It was hard to maintain myself and stay quiet, I had a few slip ups but I did good.
He puts me down and his lips touch mine.
Buzz. Buzz. Buzz.
I look over to my phone, "MY MOM IS CALLING!"
Both of our faces drop, I pick up the phone, "Yes mom?" I say trying not to sound like I'm throwing a shirt over my head.
"I'm outside of the school, can you come out?"
I throw on my shorts, "Yes mom, of course." I look over at Aaron swinging open his locker.
"What's all that ruffling?"
"Nothing mom, I'm on my way out now."
I kiss Aaron one more time then speed out the building.
I never thought a locker room is where I'd get my card taken. And I thought Aaron was way more Innocent than that. I can't see him differently than that.

"Hey!" My mom says as her eyes open wider and she smiles, I could see that she threw out a cigarette out the window but I pretend not to notice. Like ive always done.
"Hey mom." I say throwing my bag in the car, then myself after.
The whole ride was quiet, she didn't want to talk about how she was smoking and I didn't want to talk about what was going on in the building. I think she knows that we know she hasn't stopped but she just pushes it past. She isn't good at hiding things. At all. Wasn't good at hiding when she cheated on my father. I start blinking slowly at the thought.
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I wake up perfectly in time to see us pull up to our house. I follow my mom inside wiping my eyes. When I step in the house my little brother Gabe runs t me almost knocking me over, I can't help but laugh. He was only happy to see me.
"I going to take a shower." I say slowly pushing him off of me.
I have to wash off what I did, I am not proud of it, but if I could go back in time I'd still do it.
I walk in my room throwing my bag on the floor, and rushing to the bathroom and I look into the mirror, horrified what looked back. She wasn't innocent anymore. I feel horrible. In a locker room? Really? The me that woke up this morning would've been so upset at me. My biggest thought is, did he ever do i with someone before me? We was friends before we started dating, and he had many girlfriends before me so I really wouldn't be even a little bit surprised.
He seemed like he knew what he was doing, and I felt bad because I didn't and he might've noticed. This whole thing has been stressful. And embarrassing. But at the same time, I still would do it again.
Ding. Ding.
I go in my pocket and speak of the devil.
Aaron sent you a message.
Aaron: I'm sorry that happened, I feel like I did horrible. Can you meet up in our spot please
Me: I have to babysit.
Aaron: Omw to your window.
On his way where?? I start shaking looking at my phone I don't know what to do. Now I should really hop in that shower.
"AUDREYYYY IM LEAAVING NOW!" and after that I hear the door slam
No. No. No.
I have to stall Gabe.
Bedtime early?