Bondita's dedication towards her Sansaar

Meri Khwahishe; Meri Dard

Hello friends, sorry for the late update but even if I have come late I here to give one each chapters of my two story's

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Anirudh searched her everywhere in the room but didn't find bondita. He searched her whole haveli, patting heavily in fear; what would have happened to her? Has someone taken her somewhere? He could compare some past incidents with this, how Thakur came into their room when they were sent to their room. He was feeling miserable thinking about her and losing her forever. He didn't understand where she went. Anirudh wanted to knock on the door of Chandra's, which was an unmannerly act. They need a private space for themselves. But what about others? Where did they go? No one was there in Das Bari because after sending Chandrachur, Tapur, Bondita and Me to the room, all the family members had gone to the temple for pooja and to start a new life. Anirudh overlooked that information when it was given by thakuma when he was in his world.

Bondita was lying on the terrace floor lifelessly looking at the skies and stars as she knew about her pathi babu.. oops, sorry, sakha babu, he won't agree to this rasam. He hasn't accepted her as his wife, nor he will do it in future. Even if he was forced to come inside the room because of her thakuma, he would never allow her to go near him, nor he will come. Tears were flowing from her doe-shaped eyes. Her eyes weren't sparkling as she was thinking about her fate; she once again became a burden, coming forcibly into his life by snatching his happiness, dreams, and life. From her Sansaar, her God, who once saved her from getting burnt alive. At that time, she was in an unconscious state and didn't know about the dark truth of their marriage; somehow, she controlled that time because she was unconscious when this all was happening. But now she is broken into pieces more compared to last time. She was hardly holding her love and raising feelings dangerously for him, but how could she do it now? Which will eventually hunt her day and night; whenever he is around her, she is near him.

Bondita POV
We both dreamt about my life becoming the first women barrister. But gradually, when I was growing up, my admiration towards him changed to crush when he learnt about my thing; he tried to bring her on the correct path and make her understand that this age is not for all these things, so I needed to focus on my career path for which he took the wrong step by marrying Manorma didi that too fake marriage.

After a few days, when the truth came out about the manorama being krantikari, and he married just for my studies to bring me on the right path, he did this drama. I felt lucky to have such a gentleman, but when I realized my feeling was not crush, it was love. I slowly admired him more and stole my glances from him, blushing like teenagers. But this happy and proud feeling didn't last long in my life. When Diwali was approaching, ksj asked us to clean the whole house. I took waste items to our storage room, where our old albums were kept. That day was another dark day for me; it was like earth pulled from my leg. I was heartbroken; I thought when Pathi Babu married manorama that it was just for my sake. To bring me on the right path; no...it was not, but it was for his second love. He loved her; she was his "pehli nazar main zindagi bar waala pyaar". Learning this broke my heart; my actual first love, which was pure and selfless love towards him, eventually went unnoticed by anyone or him. Before I could feel my feelings wholeheartedly for him within that time, I felt my whole world collapse into another truth of his life. Am I not that close to his heart? Why did he not tell me all this? Doesn't he even think of me as a human? I also have feelings. He has kept this a secret; how many secrets does he have? He didn't tell our marriage truth about his first love with buri ya pari didi, about his second chance of getting love for him, but what did I do? I have created drama by throwing sindoor thaal and crying, forcing him to accept me as his wife. Now I can feel his heart broken when he loved two women, and he didn't even get a chance to have them in his life as his love, his wife, his everything. (hides her face with her palms and sobs continuously) Hey durga maa, what is happening in my life? If I get a chance, I'll leave him without any obligations. As I requested, Durga Maa provided me with an opportunity to give freedom, to give back his life, but I couldn't change the past. Separating from him late won't be good as he had spent five years of his life, but this will be better for both. He can at least live happily by marrying another girl his age and getting wife love.