reflections

fallin' just as hard

seven rolled around, and the three boys made their way to Hans house.

Chan watched them from the window.
he actually wanted to go on that sleepover, but he didn't want felix to be uncomfortable.

he sighed.
"I completely fucked everything up, didn't I?"
he said to himself.
"never mind."

he took his things and went out of the coffee shop, locking it behind him. but when he turned around, he was surprised to see sort of a familiar face.
"hyunjin?"

"chan."
hyunjin responded.
"how about we went to get something to drink?"

•~•

"why do you want to talk to me?"
chan asked, drinking his beer.

they went into a close bar and sat at the counter.
chan wanted to leave, but he didn't.

"felix told me what happened yesterday."
hyunjin responded.

Chan sighed.
"and what about it? you came just to rub it into my face?"

hyunjin shook his head.
"no, that's not why im here."

"then what? what do you want from me?"
Chan asked, a little angry.

"Felix was down the entire night. he's really sad about this whole situation. I know he doesn't want to hurt you, and that he doesn't want to loose your friendship. and I'm 100% sure you also don't want to loose him."
hyunjin said.

"why are you telling me this?"

"because it's better for both of you to talk about this."

"funny. he was ignoring me the whole day today. he didn't even look in my direction."
Chan said, sarcastically.

"you can't blame him for that Chan."
hyunjin answered, softly.

Chan sighed.
"I don't. I'm just....i know that I would probably do the same in his situation. I should have just kept my feelings a secret and get over him instead of ruining out friendship."

"it's not ruined. you can still talk about it and fix it."

"hyunjin...how can a friendship be fixed when one of them has feelings for the other?"

"communication, and moving on."
hyunjin responded.
"I can't say that I understand you, because I have never been in your situation, but people move on, and if you want to fix your friendship, you have to too."

"I just....i don't understand why he chose you."
Chan said, looking at hyunjin.
"I've been there for him when he needed me, I was always kind and loving to him, and he chooses someone who he knows for what? a few months?"

"you can't control your feelings chan. you of all people should know that."
hyunjin said.
"we have so much in common, and we instantly bonded over our interests. it's easier to fall in love when you have something to talk about with the other person."

"that doesn't make sense."

hyunjin sighed.
"I just came here to tell you to not put your own selfishness in the way of your friendship. felix loves me, and I love felix. you can't change that. so please, try to move on. for your, and Felix's well being."
he said, taking a few wons from his wallet and put it on the counter.
"goodbye Chan."
he got up and left, leaving Chan behind.