𝐒𝐞𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐲 𝐊𝐚𝐧𝐠 | 𝐂.𝐉𝐇 𝐱 𝐊.𝐘𝐒 ✓

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Jongho didn't waste time to pull him in, close the door and hug him. 

Yeosang was shivering as he hugged him back, both of them not caring about the fact that he is wetting Jongho's clothes and just hugging there in silence.

Jongho couldn't believe it. Yeosang just told him he remembers what happened, and Jongho felt like he is on the moon. He hugged Yeosang tightly, not letting him go as he felt the male start to cry. 

"God, I missed you so much.." Jongho mumbled as he hugged him close, not letting Yeosang go even for a second. 

Yeosang gripped the front of his shirt as he cried, making Jongho want to cry too. He missed his boy so much, and he is finally back. 

"I missed you too, I-I'm so so sorry Jongho-"

"No, don't ever apologize to me. I don't want to hear it when I'm the one who should be apologizing." Jongho cut him off. 

Yeosang didn't answer, instead just moved back and looked at Jongho. He wiped his tears away with his thumb, and without thinking, Yeosang pressed their lips together.  Jongho didn't waste time and kissed him back, wrapping his arms around Yeosang's waist and pulling him even closer. He missed him so much. 

That kiss was what Jongho missed in this time. He missed Yeosang's lips and everything about him. He loved Yeosang so much. 

"Let's get you under the shower so you don't get sick and talk afterwards, okay?" Jongho mumbled. 

Yeosang nodded, letting himself be pulled into the bathroom and let Jongho slowly undress him. He didn't care as he just let himself be naked in front of Jongho and didn't care about anything. 

Jongho kissed him again as he tried not to cry, sniffling a bit and just pulling off Jongho's shirt too. They were both soon naked and stood under the warm water.

Yeosang hugged him as water ran down their bodies, and they just stood there and hugged each other. It just felt too perfect, and Yeosang felt like crying again.

He slowly sobbed as he held Jongho close to him. He is never going to let him go again, and Yeosang is going to make sure he keeps his word.  The emotions were too much, and Yeosang just broke down and started to cry even harder now. 

"Hey, don't cry.." Jongho mumbled as he tried not to cry too and rubbed his back. 

Yeosang clung closer to him like a koala, hugging Jongho tightly and shaking his head. He didn't know what to do. 

Yeosang is not going to let him go ever again. That's for sure. 

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"Are you okay?" Jongho whispered in his ear. 

Yeosang sat down on the floor and just stared somewhere as he leaned his back on the couch. He felt numb, but yet so many emotions inside of him. 

He hummed as Jongho sat down on the sofa as Yeosang sat on the floor in front of him. Jongho put his arms around his shoulders and leaned down, sighing a bit and hugging his shoulders.

The tv was turned off as they just sat in the dark as the rain kept falling outside, but Yeosang seemed calm now. He wore Jongho's pajama pants and his oversized shirt, looking just so adorable. 

"I'm so sorry, I don't even know what to tell you anymore.." Jongho whispered again. 

Yeosang closed his eyes and lightly shook his head. "It's okay, I can't blame you.."

He leaned back as Jongho kept hugging him, and Yeosang suddenly felt so safe. He didn't know how to cope with it because he was confused and also upset, but also very relieved because Jongho is with him. 

Jongho was quiet, but now he leaned in and kissed his cheek. Yeosang felt butterflies in his stomach as he did that, but he really didn't know what to do. 

"Jongho?" He quietly asked. 

"Yeah, my love?" Jongho replied back as he was still close to Yeosang. 

Yeosang shivered at the nickname, but he loved it. He took a hold of Jongho's palm and squeezed it. 

"What were we like before we...broke up?" Yeosang whispered. 

Jongho looked at him for a few seconds before he hummed. He knew he would be curious, and Jongho really didn't blame him. Of course he will explain everything again.

"We were so happy together. You might not remember anything, but I can tell you that you couldn't stop smiling whenever we were together. You liked cuddling with me so much, and we even talked about running away together when we finish uni.." Jongho chuckled sadly. 

Yeosang missed it. He missed not remembering anything, and he missed being happy with Jongho. It was all his fault because he stopped walking and allowed for accident to happen.

"I wish I remember all of that.." Yeosang mumbled sadly. 

Jongho was quiet before he sighed. "Love, you might not remember it now, but you might remember it later."

Yeosang now stayed quiet as the silence occurred. Jongho still kept hugging him and notched his chin over his shoulder. 

"What do you remember?.." Jongho mumbled quietly. 

Yeosang stayed quiet as he thought about it for a few moments, not really knowing what to answer. 

"The butterfly...it wasn't a dream, right?" Yeosang mumbled back. 

Jongho licked his lips as he sighed again, shaking his head and confirming Yeosang's suspicion. 

"Yeah, it wasn't a dream. I had no idea how to tell you, but it was really too much for me to handle. I wanted to tell you, but I-.."

"Hey, Jongho.." Yeosang cut him off, looking back at him and cupping his cheeks. 

He got up, straddled Jongho's lap and wrapped his arms around his shoulders. He cupped Jongho's cheek with one hand and just stared at each other. Jongho felt like he was in love with this guy even more now. 

"I get why you didn't do so. You didn't know how to say it, and I understand. It's just.. weird knowing that all of that happened and I have no idea about it." Yeosang explained. 

Jongho rubbed his waist lightly as he took a deep breath. He is at least okay now that Yeosang is calm. 

"Of course. You can always ask me anything about the past, and I'll be more than glad to tell you what happened. After all, you do deserve to know what actually happened." Jongho said. 

Yeosang smiled softly. He hugged Jongho tightly once again, trying his best not to cry as his lover was once again with him again. Jongho hugged him back tightly and rubbing his back. 

"Hey, it's okay now. I'm here with you now." Jongho whispered. 

Yeosang felt a single tear rolling down his cheek as he heard him say that. He missed Jongho so much. 

"I love you.. I love you so much, Jongho.." Yeosang whispered. 

Jongho tensed as he said that. He widened his eyes as he still held Yeosang close to him, rubbing his back and smiling now. 

"I love you too.."