A New Era (task force 141 an child reader

Guilt (chapter 7)

A/n -whaddup my homies and homsicles , I got a chapter out today since I wasn't busy so here's what the poetic rizzler has offered , Enjoy the chapter !

"We're you out of your fucking mind ? You got 4 people killed today ! Four !" Ghost yelled at you as you had both made your way back to the building basement you had all been staying."you do the one thing I fucking told you not to do you fucking bloke , you couldn't gotten killed and it seems your still wanted dead for whatever fucking stunt you pulled two days ago" ghost voice was loud , his deep voice rining in your ears causing you to coward and lower your head.

"I know it's my fault those people are dead you fuckwad! It also wasn't my fault that those officers started firing recklessly!" You snapped and Ghost let out of huff as he stepped closer to you and got into your face but before he could say another word price stepped in front of you , almsot as if he was sheilding you. "Ghost that's enough." Price bellowed , soap and Gaz staying quiet as they watched everything unfold.

Ghost glared at you and backed up before setting his rifle down and unclipping his vest and throwing it off to the side harshly. Price sighed and pinched the bridge of his nose and he looked at you. "I know you messed up alright but you shouldnt have gone outside , now n says your actions could affect everyone around you...even the ones you love." Price explained calmly to you. He was right , everything you did today effected everyone else around you even if it was partially your fault but at the same time it wasnt your fault at all.

"I know...I just wanted to head to my spot I just-" as you tried to defend yourself price just placed a hand I front of you and you stopped talking. He sighed and looked at you before turning and looking at soap."soap will be staying with you tomorrow and training you a little in hand to hand combat , you will not be allowed back out until then." Prices voice was collected and you just nodded again keeping quiet. Ghost then walked over again. "This is why we can't have literal children on our hands, I'll say it again , she's a lilabilty." Ghost snapped before keeping quiet again. You cowarded your head and stood in the corner.

Everything was over , you felt everything setting in and you felt like everything was your fault when it wasn't. It wasn't your fault that those people died it was the officers but you felt like it was all you anyways. It was about mid day now and it was nighttime , you heard the signals and sirens outside that signaled that meant curfew was in action and no one was allowed to leave there houses our wherever people were hiding until morning alarm went off. Only the rich were allowed outside there house and to do whatever they pleased.

You stood lying on your hoodie in the corner as the others were now sleeping. Price earlier has been working at the mini table you had set up and he's been tinkering with the wrist band he was telling you about. You didn't understand why ghost was such a dick to you , price was cleaner about it despite the cost and actions of what happened but ghost went completely off at you and you didnt know why. You just knew that he acted like a ashoka for no apparent reason that you knew of.

It was dark and you stood quiet as the others sleeped , even ghost was sleeping which was very unlike him giving the impression  that he was bark and bite and very closed off and reserved , you would've thought he stood up in the night but not this night , he stood sleeping in one part of the basement far away from eveyone. Gaz stood sleeping in his gear as the others did the same aside from ghost having his vest off and sleeping  with his rifle , soap on the other hand slept under a thin sheet which he looked clam and content under:

Much later on in the night you stood up and awake. You thought about everything that happened and you felt guilty. The lives that were taken Due to the officers recklessness but also due to it being from the officers chasing you. You felt as if you never went outside that never would of happened in the first place so the guilt was there and it was eating you alive. You sighed and stood quiet as the others stood sleeping in there corners of the basement.

You sighed as you looked around but you grew alert as you heard a sound. You eyes squinted as you tried to see who it was and to your surprise it was soap. "Hey lass..what you doing up?" Soaps groggy voice filled the void of quiteness that surrounded. "I'm not tired." You muttered and soap had a empathetic look on his face as he scooted from his sleeping spot over to you.

"Listen I know everything that happened today was stressful but trust me it isn't your fault one bit , I can see and hear the guilt in your voice and face" soaps Scottish tone was soft as he spoke towards you. You sighed and turned to look at him , seeing his face a little as there was a small glimpse of light coming through the cracked window from the outside if I didn't do what I did earlier in the days..." your meek and quiet voice trailed off as you remembered the events that took place that night.!"If I didn't go outside those soldiers wouldn't have been after me and those people would still be here..." you added.

"Y/n what happened that night if you don't mind me intruding?." Soap asked as he looked out in front of you thinking of your words that had come out into the world. "That night....two days ago I was roaming the streets looking for a place to crash and since we'll...I'm Lower class it's pretty hard. I was walking and soon made my way down the street until officers found me , I ran hit couldn't escape and one of the officers so I used a knife to get away and may have stabbed the guy.." you explained and
soaps eyes widened as he let your words sink in but he understood why you did it. You weren't some cold killer , you were a scared child trying to get away.

"That's harsh....yknow how come you didn't go to the shelters?.." you felt your breath hitch as you thought about the things that had happened that night and you felt your palms get a bit sweaty and you felt your fight or flight kick in as you realized the postion you were potentially in. "Uhm...I rather not explain.." you sighed and soap nodded in understanding. Your thoughts then wandered back to ghost as you let the thoughts of your past slip out of your mind a little and then a question popped into your head as you looked at soap.
"I know we just met but I have a question...Did ghost ever have family ?..." you asked soap quietly as you sat against the wall.

"He did , she would've been your age actually. He never got to meet his daughter since he's been deployed , he never heard back from his wife either." Soap says quietly to you and you nodded and thought for a second. "Wait a minute...I never met my father and he left me when I was little as he had gotten deployed...what holy fuck what if ghosts my dad I mean this is a weird ass coincidence but like what the fuck.." you rambled quietly and soap rised his brows. "Well...who knows but I wouldn't ask him , he's very touchy on the subject." Soap replied and your thoughts raced again as you thought about the possibility of ghost being your father.

For ones coincidence is another's wonder but this situation left you to ponder.