Unexpected Feelings! (BWWM)

Chapter Eleven: You carry him in your heart!

Chord's Prov:

I don't think I could feel wore at the moment. How could I have let thing go from bad to worse. I was to blame for everything that was going on right now. Why did I have to react the way I did a few days ago? I mean punching Marcus and then acting like a player isn't me at all. I have never been one to play girls or do games. So I should have known messing around with other girls just to get back at Amber was a bad idea. It never works out good when you mess with peoples emotions.
I felt like shit after Amber told me what she did. I had no idea she told Marcus she liked me. I had no idea she even liked me.

I hated being in the position we were right now. I knew she was mad at me and I knew there wasn't anything I could do to change her mind at the moment. I wish I would have just told her how I was feeling. I wish I would have just went after her and not been such a dick. The moment I knew I had feelings for her I should have just told her.

Now were going on our second day of not talking and it's the day of the wedding. I have been threw hell these last few days. I have constantly tried to talk to Amber but she just puts it off and ignores me. I knew I messed up with my actions, but I just wanted a chance to prove to her that I was sorry. That what I did was wrong. I knew going into this that I would fall for Amber. I started this whole thing hoping she would realize how much I wanted her. I wanted to know if she felt the same way about me.

I have always had hard feelings for Amber. I can remember the day we met. She was so beautiful and vibrant. I couldn't stop looking at her, I was constantly trying to make her laugh or smile. I just couldn't help myself, I loved to see her smile. So from that day on I made it my mission in life to make her smile as much as I could. Everyday I found new and creative way to make her laugh. As time went on I found myself liking her more and more. I wanted so badly to make a move back then but I was afraid. Afraid of what my fans would think, what my friends would think, what my parents would think. I was to caught up in the world, and to worried about what others thought. I was a dumb kid back then.

"Hey man. how are you doing?" I was brought out of my train of thought. I turned around to see mike standing there looking at me with concern.

"I'm fine." I said to him as I tuned back around.

"Dude do I look like I was born yesterday? I know when my best friend is upset. You look like hell man." Mike said to me. I heard him walk over to me, and he sat down. "Come on dude you know you can talk to me." He said to me as he nudged me some.

I let out a loud sigh. "Mike I don't know what I am going to do. I feel like this whole thing is out of control. I let my feelings and my jealously get the best of me."

"Dude you love her, you do know that right?" He asked me as he turned to fully look at me.
"I know that."

"Well does she know that?" He asked.

I let out another sigh. "She doesn't." Mike punched me in the arm. I flinched some because it hurt. " What the fuck Mike that hurt." I said to him as I rubbed my arm.

"You want to know what your problem is Chord? Your to afraid to go after what you want. You want Amber then go fucking get her. You don't stop until she hears you out and listens to everything you have to say. You need to be forceful and let her know that you will do anything for her." He said to me.

I knew what he was saying was right. Why Amber and I were so messed up was because we had no communication at the moment. We held our feelings in and played games now we were both suffering for no reason.

"I have to get her back." I said to him as I stood up and fixed my shirt. I have to at least let her know how I feel. I have held my feelings in for to long. I will regret it if I don't.