Luna

Chapter 6

I covered my hands with my face as I sobbed, I never felt this free from telling him what I felt, I was always afraid. Afraid of what he might do to me and afraid of leaving, but now, enough was enough. Mom might have left with another man, but at least she ran away from this so called father of mine. If I stay, I might end up in the hospital or perhaps dead, if I go, then who will take care of dad?'

I felt warm hands patting my back and I looked up to see him patting me, my body tensed as I recoiled back in horror.

''Don't touch me!'' I yelled at him as I moved away from his touch.

''I..I..am so sorry'' he managed to say ''For everything'' he sat down next to me and cupped his face in his hands. I heard him sniffle, I have never seen him cry before. I felt the urge to touch him and hug him, but I was too scared to even get close.

''I always held a grudge on your mother for leaving me'' he confessed through his cupped face ''I got consumed by hatred and anger, I never thought I could love again. When I saw you smiling at me with those black eyes that resembled her, I just made it my mission to make you feel the pain that I felt when your mother left.'' He sniffled

''But dad, I was a child, how could I know if I was the seed of you and mom. I never asked for this, all I wanted was a father's love, your love dad. But what did I get, punishment after punishment. You never listen to me nor talk to me, there was never a time were you smiled at me or even took me to school'' I looked at him still holding his face.

''I am sorry Luna; I am a monster. I don't deserve to be your dad, all I ever brought you was pain and I am ashamed to admit it that you turned out to be a bright young girl.'' He stood up and kneeled down in front of me as he took my shaking his in his, I stared back at him in stunned silence.

''I don't deserve you or your forgiveness, but please give me a chance. Today was your graduation day and your birthday Luna'' he surprisingly said as I smiled at him with tears trailing down my face '' I recorded it on my calendar in my room, but when the day came I backed out. I didn't want to see your terrified eyes when you see me, it sickened me to know that my own daughter thought of me as a monster. As the grown ass man I was, I swallowed my pride and never told you, instead I drowned myself in booze. What I had done to you is unforgivable for that I will never forgive myself, I snatched away your rights to having a normal childhood and made them into your worst nightmares I was supposed to love and protect you but I did the opposite, please forgive me'' he stared at me as tears trailed down his face waiting for my response.

I looked at him and could see all the emotion pouring out of him, as he held my hands. I couldn't speak as tears clouded my eyes, for the first time my dad was sorry for everything. I leaned forward and hugged him, I have always wanted to hug him and I felt like now was the right time to embrace my father. He engulfed me too as we both cried in each other's arms ''Oh dad'' I breathed ''You don't know how long I have always wanted to do that, I love you so much'' I smiled and closed my eyes as he slowly patted my back.

''I love you more Luna and happy late birthday my little Diana'' he released me and kissed me on the forehead. "I am going to make up for all lost time or so god help, I'm going to die trying"