"THE" day

Five Months?

It was five months. Five months without seeing him, or did it just start like that? That is the idea anyone would get once "five months" was referred to.

Let's rewind in time...

Three months ago

Someone: "I feel like you are making a huge deal out of it I know I did wrong."

Naina: "I don't feel like you do know. And you don't have any idea how big of a deal it is to me."

Someone: "OK OK NOW STOP IT!"

Naina thought to herself, "I never have raised my voice at him, how dare he do that. Maybe, I am being wrong here, what's the huge deal with him giving his number to a random girl in the gym, I guess I am being wrong here."

Naina: "I am sorry, maybe it's me who's being paranoid here."

Someone: "It's okay now cut it off."

The line cuts from the other side of the call.

Naina ends up curling herself in a ball and crying out loud on her bedroom floor thinking what was that she did wrong. She started dating this guy 2 months back casually. But as time passed by, it became an obsession, love, there were strings attached. It used to bother her, whatever he did whoever he met. The biggest insecurity for her was his friends. Let me introduce them one by one but first I'll introduce this guy.

Garvit.

Garvit Srivastav was born and brought up in Tamil Nadu, his father owned a wholesale gold shop. Mother was a typical housewife who raised her one and only son like flower petals. She never cared who he talked to who he met, and sometimes who he brought home. His grandparents used to live with him in his small house. He was a total spoiled brat. His grandmother and mother would serve him food hot, even if they were supposed to make the food again exactly half an hour prior to his waking up from an afternoon nap or coming back home after playing. He was a national-level skater and had tons of trophies and medals lying around in his house. Not to forget, he was a big show-off. He was a brilliant photographer too. His family has spoiled him to the extent that he is ready to lie down on the concrete road to get whatever he wants not caring whom he is asking. Daddy gotta pay for everything that his son wants, couldn't buy him manners how sad can it be?

Shreyas.

Shreyas Mohanty, a total playboy. Had his first blow job in the ninth standard, this guy never knew what limits were. He is one year senior in college and best friend of Garvit. He had two girlfriends at the same time in college. One, who loved him like no one else would ever do, she was so pure and had no plans of letting him go even if he ever cheated on her and she had to stay friends with him for the rest of her life, the other one, just flings nothing else, and yes, that could be the best way of introducing her. Shreyas never cared what human feelings were actually. He had super rich parents and his bucket of attitude was the same level as the money in their bank account, UNLIMITED!

Aashish.

Aashish, yeah just Aashish. His mother was a divorcee. He hated his biological father. Well, why would he not, when that guy ruined his entire childhood. He used to hit his mom occasionally. Or more than occasionally. She left him because she never wanted to raise her son in an abusive household like that. She married another guy. This man was no less of a narcissist. He made all of her worst nightmares come true. Often went out cheating on her. Ended up having a fight with Aashish once too. Everything became stable when she divorced him. Aashish had no boundaries. Don't wish to say he was one of his dads but, Naina used to hate it with all of her consciousness when he used to send semi-naked pics of women to Garvit and would ask him which one was hotter than his girlfriend. 

This is all Naina understood about "him" and his messed up friends.

She used to feel like she could fix him if he could not fix it all. But she never could make out that, who would fix her if she ever lost herself in this? She made herself believe that it was love being young and naive, there couldn't be any other excuse for this. She started imagining a future with him, but she couldn't. No matter how hard she tries she can't. There was no similarity. Their culture, their language, their states, and their mentalities. 

His South Indian family saw no flaw in their son but could bring up a thousand issues within a girl who would ever marry the Srivastav family. They were huge hypocrites, racists, and mostly orthodox. His father used to exclaim that he didn't believe in dowry which later was negotiated and turned opposite by no one but himself, but Garvit had other plans, he wanted dowry for himself. Even if his father never would accept it, Garvit would, and he was never ashamed of admitting so. Naina took it as a joke the very first time Garvit said this, little did she know it was all true, and no cap.

Situations could have been different. If Naina chose to change them for herself. She believed that she could change Garvit for good. Sometimes when you go on an adventure like this one, where you have no experience and you are just a kid, you should take bits of advice. 

Situations could have been different. If luck worked for Naina. She was young. But both sides of the coin are never the same. 

Garvit has shown her 60% of the good side, but the rest 40% of his was, gaslighting manipulation, and self-blame. These concepts were not in Naina's syllabus where all of her was flowers and grasslands.

Being young, you never understand what is your mistake, or if I rephrase it, you don't understand how these mistakes happen. A bee stings. It doesn't want to. But it has to. It is self-defense. But sometimes defending yourself or defending someone close to you, costs you a fortune. Bee dies. Where a human just suffers with a swollen arm, for not more than two days. But, the bee dies. It was conscious of its death. She knew she'd die if she stings. Still, she does. 

We are conscious when we make a mistake. We are fully aware of the consequences deep inside. But we risk it. We risk our most valuable asset, our mental peace. But once we do it, there's no turning back, either the same mistake never happens again or it keeps on happening. You are the person who can choose. Learn from your mistakes or keep on doing it again and again until you stop one day, hurting yourself.

So back to the story, knowing everything, being fully aware of what might come next, Naina takes this chance, because, she loves him, and she loves his flaws too. She thinks she'll make everything better. But how?

I will see you guys in my next story until then:)

Adios.