Love education || Sunwon

VI

Sunoo doesn't care...right? But, why's he standing in front of Jungwon's locker with a box of chocolate milk and a sticky note with the message "I'm proud of you" in hand?

Sunoo's never- he's never done this before. Not even for his best friends so, why's he doing this for a guy he doesn't even like?

Perhaps it's because he feels bad for the latter? Or maybe because he's just....

He doesn't know.

Taking a deep breath, Sunoo sticks the sticky note on Jungwon's locker, carefully placing the chocolate milk in his locker and takes one last look before walking away.

First and last time.

At least, that's what he told himself.

Until he saw the teeth rotting smile on Jungwon's face after receiving the sticky note and chocolate milk.

He looked so at peace that, Sunoo couldn't help but urge to keep him at peace. So, he did what anyone else would do -or at least that's what he likes to think- and gave Jungwon a box of chocolate milk every day.

He might hate Jungwon and his sneaky jabs at him but, he thinks Jungwon smiling looks better.

Sounds ridiculous? And honestly, it is a little rediculas.

Only because he's going through a hard time.

Lies, lies, lies and lies.

But they help.

Until, they don't.

Until Sunoo can't deny the fact that seeing Jungwon smile so brightly makes his heart tingle, until Sunoo can't hide the smile on his own face, until Sunoo can't deny the obvious dent in his bank account.

Until Sunoo can't lie anymore.

Something about seeing Jungwon smile was so? So pleasing. It felt good. He assumes that's how he'll feel doing good for any other.

But he didn't do good for any other. He did something good for Jungwon.

Damn, feels good to be a decent human being.

But, he ignores and ignores and ignores.

Until, he can't.

Until Jungwon corners him in his biology class, Until Jungwon looks into his eyes with dying curiosity, Until Jungwon reads his expression, Until Jungwon gives him a hug, Until Jungwon says thank you.

He can't hide it anymore.

It's too much for him. It's too much to pretend he hates Jungwon when, he knows that's bullshit.

He doesn't hate Jungwon! He- no. No no no no no no no no no. NO!

Sunoo doesn't like Jungwon. He hates him. He hates him so much. He hates his smile, he hates his stupidly cute dimples, he hates his soft voice, he hates how Jungwon's skin feels on his own, he hates Jungwon's perfect set of teeth, he hates how soft Jungwon's hair look, he hates how undeniably good looking he is.

Sunoo hates Jungwon. He hates him so much. He hates him so much that he kisses him.

He kisses Jungwon not because he likes him! No! That's outrageous. How could he like him? He doesn't like him no.

He hates him but, kissing him feels good.

Kissing Jungwon feels.... good. He hates how good it feels to kiss him. He hates how happy Jungwon looks right now, he hates how Jungwon's eyes twinkle, he hates how Jungwon goes back to kiss him again, he hates how he kisses Jungwon back.

He hates it. He hates it so much.

He hates it so much, he kisses Jungwon deeper, leaning more into his grip, melting in his embrace, letting his hands explore though his pretty brown hair, he lets Jungwon cradle his face, he lets Jungwon's wet tongue in his mouth, he lets Jungwon explore places he's never let anyone before.

Until, he doesn't.

Until he pushes Jungwon away, until he glares him down, until he wipes his lips clean, until he fixes his uniform, until he picks up his books, until he packs his bag, until he kicks Jungwon one last time before walking away.

Sunoo hates Jungwon.

And that's a given.

"YOU SON OF A BITCH" Sunoo deserves the punch he's thrown at by Taehyun. He thinks it's fair when he sees Jungwon's red puffy eyes.

Yeah, he deserved it.

"WHAT THE FUCK TAEHYUN!" Beomgyu pushes Taehyun away but, this time, Taehyun doesn't let him.

His best friend comes before his love. And, that's why Taehyun does what he does next.

He pushes Beomgyu away just as hard, fisting his hand but stops when Winter blocks him.

"STOP THIS! WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO US" She shouts covering her friends body with unleashed tears in her eyes.

Karina scoffs, walking towards Winter "Why don't you ask your buddy that question huh?" She asks, her jaw clenched "Look at what he's done!"

She shouts, pointing at Jungwon who can't stop crying, he just wants this to stop. He never meant for this to happen he just needed someone to talk to. He didn't mean to cause such a scene, this wasn't what he wanted.

How did he get here?

Taehyun runs a hand through his hair and walks towards Sunoo, picking him up by his collar and just as he's about to punch him, he gets pulled away by a few professors, letting Sunoo fall back down.

And, Sunoo thinks he deserves it. He knows that he does.

He also knows that Jungwon doesn't so, he cries. Not because he's in pain but because, Jungwon's in pain. This was never meant to happen.

He hates it so much. He feels so icky.

Sunoo hates how loud it is and he hates how Jungwon runs up to him and soothes his pain when he can't breathe properly, he hates how Jungwon hugs him so generously, he hates how Jungwon tells him it'll be okay, he hates how Jungwon apologies, he hates how Jungwon wipes his tears, he hates how he pushes everyone away when they try to pull Sunoo away.

he hates how Jungwon still cares so selflessly.

Sunoo hates Jungwon. He hates him so much.

He hates him so much, he hugs Jungwon back and let's Jungwon comfort him, he lets his tears stain his uniform, he lets people see him vulnerable, he lets Jungwon explore sides of him no one's explored before.

He lets Jungwon unlock emotions he didn't even think he was capable of.

Sunoo hugs Jungwon back with only one though in mind;

He doesn't like Jungwon. He hates him. He hates him so much.
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I genuinely wanna punch a hole in my wall cuz Sunoo frustrates me ughhhhhhh!! I act like I'm not the one who wrote him but- okay actually :D but, in my defense! I wrote this sleep deprived with like 2 hours of sleep so like ofc he's a little unhinged-

Anyway I hope you like it~~ have a good day I love you guys so much! Make sure to eat well and stay hydrated<3