useless » haylor [book 3]

four

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the school bell rang and i hurried into the class. sir albus is here today. yay, we're gonna do english today.

i slump down on my usual seat in the middle of the class and my eyes automatically shift towards the back, searching for taylor. she's there, her eyes red and splotchy. she's wearing a white top with skinny jeans and keds. her hair is loose around her head. goddamn, she's so beautiful.

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after the class ended, i go to the back to talk to taylor, my hand fiddling with the strap of my bag. "um, hi," i manage to say.

she looks at me and at first stares at me for a moment and then she shakes her head, as if coming back to her senses. "hi," she mutters and puts her books in her bag.

"how are you today?" i ask.

she doesn't answer.

"taylor?" i repeat.

no answer again.

and then suddenly, bursts into sobs, her tears mixing with her mascara. "n-n-no, i'm not okay," she mutters.

i don't say anything. i just hug her.

"you are so special. the way you talk in english class, participating in every activity. i think you're a goddamn philosopher," i say.

"i-i'm not special," she says as she wipes her nose with her sleeve.

"you say you're not special because nobody knows about you. that's an insult to me; i know about you," i say, quoting the fault in our stars again.

she lifts her face off my chest and looks upto me. "you're so cute," she says.

my cheeks redden at her words. no one has ever called me cute. never. not even my mom.

"thank you," i beam.

taylor smiles. but in a second, her smile vanishes as she looks at something behind me and her body starts to shake.

"n-no! go away! fuck you!" she shouts behind me.

i look behind me to see who she's talking to and i see nothing. no one. no one is there. who is she talking to?

"you fucking lied! you never came back!" she screams. "i hate you!" this is the last thing she manages to say before she gets a fit of tears and collapses on the ground. i grab her but she pushes me away. "i'm sorry harry, i have to go," she says as she runs out the door.

"taylor! wait!" i scream and run after her but she is too fast. oh wait..she forgot her bag in the classroom.

i go back to the class, feeling defeated, and grab her bag. it seems heavy. what i find inside horrifies me.

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what do you think he found? ;)