The Heir

3

It's been what? Exactly two months since our arguments.

I don't know if we're still together or not because she just disappeared like that. I tried my best to find her in every possible way but she know how to avoid me in many ways. Even her phone number and social media, she blocked me. That's how much upset she was with me, maybe upset wasn't the right words but she was indeed angry with me.

Is it me who has been over-protective all the time and it gets to the point that she thought that I controlled her? But no, I love Nayeon so much. I couldn't afford to lose her in any state. But  slowly by doing this, am I slowly losing the person I love the most?

I sigh , I thought giving her time will be the best way but it's just let the situation became much more worse than I could ever imagine. I thought one week without contacting her is fine to give her some space and time but never did I thought she'll leave me for real.

Same goes for the unofficial break-up. 

I'm not assuming it yet but look at us now?

Nayeon seems like moving to somewhere which I don't really fucking know where the hell she is. Weird things in our relationship is that I never knew who's her friends or did she even have any, it is much confusing because she seems like hide a lot of things from me and being an understandable person I am, I do understand her.

I sigh heavily while looking up on the sky and take a fresh air.

Why do I felt like I don't know Nayeon at all? 

I don't have any idea that Nayeon has a hobby of swimming in the beach until I found her diary two days ago, well not really typical of diary life but a list of things she wanted to do. I regret not discover this sooner if not, we might having our romantic date here but the latter wasn't here. I missed her presence and once again I remember the reason I was the one who made her left. Maybe the reason she never told me things she wanted to do because of my fucking phobia, I felt really bad since most of things she wanted to do kind of dangerous. I know I'm a bad boyfriend, it seems like I don't deserve her at all. 

This girl, I chuckled.

I open her diary and tick the box.

Now I understand why she likes doing dangerous things I mean it's fun but I still couldn't erased my phobia,I just thought that I should go to place she wanted to go since I missed her a lot and I realized that sometimes I need fix myself for her, be better for the girl I love the most. Even if I couldn't erased my phobia of dangerous activities fully but at least I can reduce my phobia little by little. At least I could say that I tried. Also, there's tiny hope inside me that  destiny will brought us together, at least my way to find her back here so I started roam my eyes everywhere on the beach without getting distraction.

It almost took me five hours straight to find her yet I don't see any glimpse of Nayeon. I sigh and straight going to receptionist to ask either they have seen Nayeon or not. But unfortunately the answer was negative so I left my phone number there in case they saw her somewhere in the beach.

I look at the next destination for the list inside the diaries and motivate myself to never give up.

" Hilland Mountain, here we go! "

...

"Finally, you're back"

"I did so what's the matter? I leave someone behind so make sure it was worth it"

"Have you found any proof?That was the task they asked you  to incase you have forgotten. "

" Don't worry, I never forget where I'm comes from. It tooks me a while to confirm it. The rumors is true. He's dead. "

"We can't do any assumption without investigating it"

"I know but the task, we had this for years yet we didn't have any single clue. Beside there's no one up there knew our kingdom exist. It's a low risk he'll find out and those energy I don't felt it  anywhere up there."

"The low risk could be one of the possibility, we can't do any single thing mistake. You knew it by yourself if the rumors saying that the heir of theirs are still alive and it comes out true, we're destroyed."