tainted love || lee heeseung

Part 6

there were no more dreams of heeseung. no more sightings of him. just, nothing.

it made you question if he was even real and wasn't some part of your imagination.

the more you questioned yourself and heeseung's intentions, the more you could feel yourself grow into the dark pit your mind had made for you. your inner self was battling too many fights at once that your physical self felt weak and tired. everyday went by at the same slow pace with the same boring routine. each day seems to fade into one, unable to tell the difference between them as you fight the internal battle you've created for yourself.

on one side, you knew that heeseung was dangerous. just a few months ago you didn't even think demons were real. but now that you were aware, you should know all of the scary movies and stories and myths you had heard about them were real. you knew that heeseung had a power that could harm people. the thought of him hurting someone jabbed at your heart and made you feel ill.

on the other side you felt a strong connection to him. the way he was gentle with you and watched over you even though he knew he shouldn't have. it lets you know that he must also feel the same connection that you do. he's alluring and different and makes you feel like you're special. no one has ever been able to make you feel as good as him.

so now that he's gone, you struggle to really know your worth all because of a demon.

at work, mary seemed to notice you were struggling, well everyone could tell. but your friend confronted you one evening as you were leaving work. "hey, y/n!"

you turned at the voice of your friend, watching her chase after you in your work building. you hold the door for her and watch as her smiling face approaches you. usually you would be happy to see your friend, but you're just so exhausted that you struggle to smile back at her.

"you going home now?" mary asked once she's reached you.

"yeah," you replied, starting walk outside now with mary beside you.

"right, well can we talk for a second?"

you stop and nod at your friend, wanting her to continue.

"y/n, i've noticed a change in you. you seem, i don't know, depressed. you can tell me what's going on."

you tense at her words, not knowing what to say. "nothing's wrong, mary. thanks though." you turned away from her, hoping to get to your car quickly.

"wait, y/n!" mary's arm grabbedyou to turn you around. "please, i know something's wrong. you haven't been the same since you moved into that house."

you hesitated, torn between keeping your secret and the need to confide in someone. finally, you spoke in a hush tone incase someone walked by, "mary, remember heeseung, that demon we spoke to on the ouija board."

"yeah..." mary's eyebrows scrunched together in confusion.

"well, we accidentally summoned him, so now he's, he's visited me in my dreams. i hear him whispering and i see him. we've, spoken before."

mary's eyes widened with shock and concern, her voice filled with urgency, "what do you mean you've spoken?"

you shrugged, not wanting to tell her that you've had sex with him, "not much, and i can't seem to resist him. but, he's gone now."

"what do you mean 'gone'?"

'he said that he shouldn't still be in contact with me, and that it's no good, so he's left."

mary grabbed onto your shoulders so you could only look at her. "listen to me y/n, you have to fight this. whatever going on with you now. heeseung is manipulating you. he's a demon! you must break free from him, from this, whatever you have with him!"

but even as your friend warned you and told you the same things you've told yourself, your heart raced with longing for heeseung. you yearned to see him and talk to him at least one more time. heeseung was just too strong to resist.

"i, i can't mar," you admitted. "there's just, something about him. i know it's wrong, but i can't help myself."

mar tried to hide the disgust that was filling up with her when a genuine smile spread across your face for the first time in weeks, and it was because of a demon. an evil demon that she thought was only doing harm to her friend.

as mary reached out to hold your trembling hands she spoke, "y/n, this isn't good for you. maybe you should stay at my house, and get away from him."

"no!" you ripped your hands out of your best friends, "i don't want to! i don't want to do any of that. heeseung, he. he's different."

"he's a demon!"

you scoff, "you don't think i know that? i'm connected to him! more connected than i've been to anyone. he understands me. and you'll never understand that."

"right, i'll never understand how my friend turned out to be such a freak! you need help!"

you jaw droppedat your friend's words, pure anger and guilt taking over you, "yeah fuck you, mary! you're the one that wanted to play the ouija board in the first place! so it's your fault!" your words snap at her and you see her face fall at them before you turned on your heel and beeline it to your car. not looking back as you pull out onto the street, ready to go home.