IVAN XAVIER MALDRED ALCANTARA'S POV
Loving someone is a risk that we need to take no matter how hard the consequences would be. I was never courageous enough to make someone stay, or to even wander off too far and throw out my suitcase of pride just to pleased anyone to be here with me, I blame myself to some extent that I never tried settling everything between me and Shane.
I'd face thousands of heartaches and I can say that these one are hardly indifferent. And do you know what's the hardest part of letting go of someone you deeply in love with? It is the very moment that I missed you and the feelings I have to examine of what only remains after the separations.
Day by day, I found myself dying with every other wounds that I never showed... and it's deeper... more hurtful than any wounds that bleeds.
I know she never remember me if ever she can remember me, I'm sorry Shane if I walk away without you knowing. I gave you your truly happiness even if it's not mine.
The love for me is still here, just my heart suffers in a silent pain... Even after months... and years... I can't still accepting the fact that you are gone now. Deep inside of mine, there is this crying voice. "Why can't it be me?" I don't even know how to make it stop because it craves something that is impossible to have.
Maybe next time, in another life perhaps... I just hope in another universe, there is you and me...
I choose to love you in silence, because in silence I feel no rejection. I can gaze upon your beauty, and a dream of all the things we could be. I can whisper you name in the dark and know that no one will hear... not even you... I can hold you close in my heart, and never let you go... you are like a tattoo, Shane. Just let me admire you in silence Shane until my feelings fade away, because in silence my love is pure. It is not trained by fear or doubt, it is not bound by the expectations of the world. I'm sorry for the mistakes that I made you in the past, I didn't mean it.
My love for you is free. It is wild and untamed. It is a fire that burns within me. And it will never be extinguished. This called 'love' I was tested more than ever.
I lost, but also I won, I failed, I cried, I laughed, I learned and I loved with so much sacrifices, but most of all, I'm still here, breathing in free oxygen. I can't help but laugh. "Thank you for the lesson, Shane." I whispered.
Letting you go is the hardest part I needed to do, at first I don't want to do it but then I realized I can choose to be excited over my future rather than torn up over my past... with you...
I need to more forward... I need to get used that your no longer in my arms anymore.
"Darling, you will never be unloved by me, you are too well tangled in my soul."
After I said that, I stood up on the bench where I was sitting while looking at the sky with a bittersweet smile on my face, "What a beautiful twinkling stars in the sky."
"Look at the moon, sister!" I turned to the girl who was teasing her sister. Her sister also looked at the moon and smiled, "Beautiful."
"Yeah, the moon is beautiful, isn't it, sister?" I saw the girl nodded at her sister. She must have felt that someone was watching their behavior so she looked in my direction with a frown, she raised an eye brow. I can't help but I find it cute.
She is definitely cute....
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Love Beyond Memories
RomanceWhat happens when you wake up from a coma and your whole world turns upside down? That's the question that plagues Shane as she discovers that everything she knew about her life after the accident is a lie. Her boyfriend, who she has come to love, i...
