I have never discuss my own experiences with rape, sexual abuse, depression and suicide unless it is with persons I am close but I felt the need now, that since it was really my fault and I had nothing to be ashamed off, that I needed to stop being the victim and be a survivor.
When I was a young child I was sexually abused by a relative that continued for some years, I did not understand what was happening and felt it was my fault, I was also raped back home and on campus. So I have suffered from low self esteem, , I am still struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts but I have realized that I have overcome and now I am alive.
Because of my low self esteem among other things, I struggled with school but even that I realized I overcame with my great support system.
Because I survived and overcame because of my strong and awesome support system, I want be there for those who didn’t have any such support.
What helped me get through was God, my poetry which I used to express my emotions and feelings, all my god mothers, aunties and persons God has bought into my life.
So while still have a long way to go, I believe by opening up more i could heal more and help someone else
