My head hurts, it's so tiring to put a fake smile and act like I'm not dieing inside cause I don't want to burden anyone.
I want to be alone but I don't want to be lonely. I want to ask for help but I just can't. I don't know how long this pain, anxiety and depression is going to last. I'm so tired.
I want to sleep for a very long time. I need peace. I thought I was getting better but it's seems that when you fake something, you eventually start to believe it yourself.
I'm back in that dark place I don't want to be. I'm screaming for help in my head but silent. I feel alone in front of everyone.
Cutting my lap has been a coping mechanism. No one is going to understand me. I guess I don't deserve happiness.
