Begin Again (A Starting Over Romance)

8. Luke

This was a bad idea. I knew it before seeing her soaking wet with nothing but a towel on. But now, I know I'm fucked. Ryan saw her naked and that pisses me off. It shouldn't. I don't have a claim to her. I know he is just messing with her to get to me and I think she knows that too. It's just the first night having her here. How am I supposed to get through more without wanting to sneak into her room and do what I want with her.

That ex of hers was a fucking idiot. I didn't get to see what Ryan did but I don't have to see it to know that it's amazing. I can feel my dick swell at the mental image I have of her, wet and naked. It's been about a month since I've brought someone home with me to scratch an itch. I don't see me doing that with her here so I guess it's my hand for the foreseeable future. I hear Ryans bedroom door close so I take the opportunity to get to the bathroom without him seeing my pants pitching a tent.

I start the shower and I step in. I can't wait, I start stroking hard and fast. Images of Olivia in my mind. Pretending it's her mouth instead of my hand. On her knees in the shower. I let out a groan and hot cum shoots all over the shower floor. I feel like a teenager again. Hiding it in the shower. I haven't done that in years. Usually if I need a release, I call someone up. Someone that knows the drill. We get what we both need from each other, and that's it. No staying over and no cuddling after. Some girls think they can "change" me and push for more. When that happens, I don't call them anymore.

I get out of the shower and dry off, I wrap the towel around my waist and open the door. For a split second, I think about what would happen if I knocked on her door. Would she let me in or would she slam the door in my face? I shake my head at the thought. I can't do that, I can't take advantage of her when she's been through so much.

I get dressed and get into bed. I lay awake with Olivia on my mind.

The next morning, I wake up to the smell of food. My stomach growls at the smell so I get up. I walk into the kitchen and see Olivia standing at the stove. She is flipping pancakes. "Morning" I tell her and she jumps and turns around. "Morning, I hope I didn't wake you. Im making you guys pancakes as a thank you for everything." She says and her eyes travel my naked chest. They stop on the tattoo on my side and then they find the one on my right peck. On the other side, I have a tattoo on my shoulder that goes down to the front and back. Her eyes go down to my abs and a little further down before she snaps her eyes back up to mine. I smirk at her to let her know I caught her checking me out. "Sorry, I didn't mean to stare. You are so thick and hard. You're big.Not fat though, very fit. I can tell you really work out. And those tattoos are very attractive." She blurts out and then her face turns super red. Her eyes go wide and she covers her face with her hands. "Oh my God. I can't believe I just said that out loud. Kill me now. Sometimes when I'm nervous I have word vomit. I'm sorry, I'm so embarrassed" She says kinda mumbled through her hands.

I can't help but laugh. She peeks at me through her fingers. She is so fucking cute. I walk over the her. Turn the stove off and add the last two pancakes to the stack. I take her hands in mine and pull them from her face. I still hold her hands as I say "Don't ever apologize for saying what is on your mind. No need to be embarrassed." I tell her and she looks into my eyes and nods.

A throat clears behind us. We turn to see Ryan grinning at us. "What's going on guys?" He asks and I let go of Olivia's hands. "Oh nothing, Olivia was just telling me, how did you put it? Oh yeah, I'm thick and hard and big." I laugh and she smacks my shoulder. Ryan coughs up his coffee "You did not say that." He laughs and Olivia says "Unfortunately, that is pretty much exactly what I said." She says and her face goes red again.

Ryan bends over from laughing so hard. "Damn, Olivia. That's the best thing I've ever heard. Having you around is going to keep us on our toes." He tells her and she rolls her eyes. "I'm glad I can be of entertainment to you two. Can we just eat already?" She says as she gets in the cabinet for plates.

We sit down at the table and start eating. "I didn't even know we had pancake mix in the house." Ryan says after he takes a bite.

"You didn't, I made it from scratch." Olivia says as she takes a bite. "You can cook?" I ask her just trying to make conversation.

She nods and shrugs. "It's nothing special. I had to learn if I wanted to eat at my mom's house and then when I moved in with Logan,I learned a little more at the diner. Eventually he  wanted dinner every night on the table when he got home. If I didn't, he would get pissed and toss me around. Telling me how worthless I was. So I learned a little more." She says like it was nothing.

"What a piece of shit. You don't have to cook for us Liv. We don't expect anything from you." I tell her and she nods. " I know. Old habits die hard, I guess.I wanted to cook you guys breakfast. You have both done so much for me already. Ill admit, it's fun cooking when I know that I'm not going to get punched if it isn't perfect." She says and don't say anything, I just take another bite. I don't like hearing about why he would hit her, what excuse he would come up with.

Ryan's phone dings and he looks at the message. "Looks like your part just arrived at the shop. I'm gonna go and get to work on it for you. I should have it going in a few hours." He says as he stands up and takes his plate to the sink. He walks out the front door and now it's just me and Olivia again.

She stands up and starts gathering dishes to put into the sink. She turns on the hot water and puts soap on her sponge. I come up behind her and put my hands on each side of her. She turns her head slightly to look at me. "Olivia." I whisper in her ear. She turns around and we are so close that if she leaned in just a little, we would be kissing.

"Yeah?" She asks and her eyes go my my lips. She bites her bottom lip and then she meets my eyes again. I sigh and put my forehead against hers. "I'm fighting every single instinct that I have to lean in and kiss you." I whisper to her.

"Then just do it." She tells me and I close my eyes. "Aaagh, I can't. Not yet anyway. You just broke up with your boyfriend. I don't want to be the guy to take advantage of your situation and kiss you when you are vulnerable. But for the record. I really,really want to."  I tell her and she nods. "I get it, I don't like it,but I get it. For the record, I want you to kiss me too." She says and I kiss her forehead and back away. "Let's get these dishes in the dish washer. Ryan will be done in no time and I can take you to your car." I tell her and she nods.

She bends over while putting dishes in the dishwasher and she is right in front of me. I deserve some kind of award for not giving in.