[Masked Fool]

[PROLOGUE: THE START]

"In another life, come find me. I will be waiting for you, Zephyr dear" - that was what you said when you left my arm.

I still remember when we were learning violin and promised to open a tailor together when we graduated. You gave me an earring, and you were wearing one. I smiled at you, and you grinned.

But I hope I can still see you delighted and cheerful. An explosion suddenly ruined our graduation, and you with your burning will, wanted to save the people. But your will took away your life, and you sacrificed your life for others.

I should have grabbed your wrist and stopped you. I should have been selfish, and prevented you from rushing into the flame that can consume every living being. I could not see you, so I ran into the burning heat, trying to catch a glimpse of you with your weakest breath. I kneeled on the ground, holding you when you were dying.

How pathetic. You grinned at me when your breath was getting fainter by time. "In another life, come find me. I will be waiting for you," you told me before you closed your eyes. I could still feel you in my arms, but why don't you look at me anymore?

Although you have been sleeping for 10 years, you still would not look at me again. Why? Did I annoy you, or disappointed you, or make you feel regretting your choice of being my companion so that you keep sleeping like this? Or it was because I have covered my feelings for too long and that disappointed you?

I should have told you my feelings sooner because I have doubted myself for too long that I have lost my mind. I wore a mask and pretended that I am a man for women, but in reality, I already had you to praise, admire, and be affectionate with. I try to fake myself to others, just to cover up my wishes with you.

Please wake up, I missed you so much. Without you, I am just a fool who went murdering people to get rid of the thought that people took away your life by forcing you to help them and to survive each day of life without happiness. It is like a déja vu, and I am trapped in it. I am afraid of a world without you, so wake up and smile at me again. I am begging you to do so.

How I wish I would die with you that day so that we would not have to be separated like this. But you know, I will try to live for you until I give up and find you in another life.

So, please wait for me, and I am sure that I will find you as soon as possible.