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Beomgyu pov:

It's midnight, and here I am, driving and speeding on the road. Skipping the red lights, etc. I do this almost every night. Why? I myself don't know either. I have this sudden rush and urge at night. Driving helps it go away.

I'm told I could be struggling. I don't believe it, but I could be. Kai says I'm more lonely and distant. Soobin thinks I'm either less or more emotional, whatever that means. And whenever I drive at night, I just have the urge to drive off a bridge or crash and die. Oh, and I can't sleep as well... Does that even count? Oh well...

It turns 1:00 and I quickly take a turn to arrive home. By the time I'm there, the house is quiet. I don't live with my parents they hate me, so I live with my younger cousin, Huening Kai. I call him hyuka, though.

He's surprisingly asleep. Usually, he would stay up till I got home and scold me for being too late. Which is why I came earlier now. I used to come home by around 5, and Kai would always be worried for me, thinking I had died. I couldn't have him worry anymore.

I walk over to his room to check up on him, seeing him covered with all his plushies. God, it's adorable. I then look at the floor to see more and more plushies. I lean down, picking them up and throwing them on top of Hyuka. He always gets devastated when he finds them on the floor.

Once I was done, I walked over to my room. When I was in, I took my jacket off and began changing into my pajamas. Once I do, I grab a pillow and head over to my window, popping it open.

I don't know why, but I always stare out the window at night. At the stars. The types of patterns whatever you call them. It calms me. Not as much, but it does. And it gets me kinda sleepy, which is why I tend to wake up with the sun bright on my face and a headache. I have been waking up like this for the past week, so I get up, prepare my bed, and finally. Sleep.

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I yawn. Opening my eyes to see the white paint on my ceiling. I stare for a moment, trying to awaken myself. Then I grab my phone, to check the time. It's eleven. I can stay here for a bit. Unfortunately, a bit turned into an hour and a half, and now it's around 12:30. This is bad because I need to be at the race track by 1:00. So I immediately get up from bed, which I regret so badly, god, I'm dizzy from that. Either way (stan I've), I walk over to the bathroom so I can wash up and get dressed quickly. Once I do, I rush over to the door.

"Not so fast." There's Kai grabbing the back of my shirt, preventing me from opening the front door. "At least take something to eat on the way." And so I do. I rushed over to the kitchen and grabbed some toasted bread. "Kai, I got bread! I'll see you later, bye." And before Kai can even say anything, I'm out the door and heading to my bike. My bread is already done, so I hop on and speed my way over to the track.

Now here I am, 30 minutes late. Well, not really. I'm not even supposed to be here at 1:00, but it's my daily routine. Around this time, I can peacefully speed on the track. There's more people around than normal, but it's fine. Although I do wonder why...

By the time I'm done speeding around the track, there are twice as many people around. Seriously, barely anyone comes here. Why are their so many now? I check the time 2:30. I think I should get a snack now.

I take my bike and head over to the food, cafe, and shop. I don't know what you call it, okay? I always go there because Hyuka and Soobin work there and I can get discounts. Sometimes, I even get the food for free.

When I enter the cafe I'm greeted by Soobin and already he starts my order. I come here very often, so he knows my order. It's an egg croissant sandwich, simple and little, but I don't eat much, so this is perfect.

A few minutes pass, and my order is ready. "Soobin..." I look at him, and he already knows what I'm about to say. And judging at his face, the answer is probably no. "I made this for u since you always complain if it's by someone else, you are going to pay."

I whine in defeat and pull my wallet out, giving him the money. And now, finally, I can eat my croissant. I walk out of the food, shop, and cafe place, and I walk a bit on the street before heading to the track again.

Damn Soobin really does make a good croissant sandwich. I wish I had another.

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I'm here back on the road, making my way back to the race track. Traffic is crazy though so by the time I'm there, it's almost 4:00, and damn the place is like 5 times more crowded and busier than before. Seriously, what the fuck happened.

I tried my best to enter, and it took a bit, but I managed. "Hee!" I run towards Heeseung once the I make it out of the crowd. "Wtf happened here! Why are there so many people!" I exclaim at him, but he looks at me like I'm acting dumb. "Beoms, are you serious?" I look at him with a confused ass look. I don't know what is going on. Yes, I'm serious. "Look, Hee, I literally have no idea what ur talking about."

He looks at me, both disappointed and shocked. "So you haven't heard about the Choi Yeonjun visiting and helping the track."

"Who?"

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That fact that chpt took a month to write.

(I I was lazy I wrote only a few sentences a day, not much motivation.)

Hopefully, the next few won't.

Will try to update every week, if not every two weeks.

(Finished at night. I'm half awake. There may have been mistakes they should be fixed soon.)

Hope u enjoyed this chpt lly <3

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