Tattered Love

Chapter 25

I pull his letter out of my bra and take a second glance at it. This time my glance is more observant. I read each word carefully and throughly read each sentence. Each paragraph makes my heart flutter yet crumple at the same time. It's like my heart is soaring yet free falling at the same damn time. All because of the circumstance we're in. I should be pissed at Alessio, yet I'm not. I can't be mad at him when he dated her before me. I mean, I should be furious he kept dating her once I signed the first contract or while we became 'engaged' but again, I can't. No matter how much I want to hate and be furious with him, I can't. My love for him burns more than hatred. He made a mistake but couples do, don't they? We were an arranged marriage I knew he wouldn't have been faithful to me. I look back down at the letter for the second time, my tear drops have water stained some parts. But, I can still make out his writing.

"My Dear Issy,

If it weren't for me, we wouldn't be in this mess. If I could have cut her off the moment you signed those papers, I would. Ana had a hold on me at first but by the time two months after our agreement, her hold broke. But, it was too late. Far too late. If I could go back in time and change everything my sweet Angel, I would. But I'm not magician and the only thing I can do is fix the mistakes I made. To get us out of the mess I've caused. I know I've caused you countless heartaches which I'll fix with time. If you let me of course. It took me a while to figure out your code. I received it clearly. You and I as a team will get through this. These sets of papers are our 'divorce' papers. Do as you please with them but whatever you do MAKE a scene. If you choose to make this 'divorce' draw out longer, I'll kiss your feet forever. I'll draw your bath, massage your body, I'll even learn how to do a diy spa just for you. I'll personally be your massage therapist. I know this won't fix the brokenness within you but it's a start right? Once we or I fix the mess we're in, we'll go to your favorite destination for a honeymoon. Hell, we can even redo our wedding so it's your dream on. Hell, we can start all over that way you can fall in love with me the proper way. The way your first marriage should have been. No one's perfect but in my eyes, you are. Your sass, the fire in your eyes, your wolf antics, your laugh, your smile, the freckles that litter your face make you perfect in my eyes. I've never been one to show my emotions or to tell them really. But for you I'll try. I'll try every day for you. You may not believe me now but you will down the long journey ahead. I wish days I was like my brothers, they seems to make you smile more than I do. But that'll change. I hope one day you'll believe me with that one too. As our lives slowly begin, our love will blossom. Mine already has since the moment you dropped the vase on the bakery. Your clumsiness makes you who you are as well. I'll take the flaws you have any day over anyone. You're the stars that litter the sky like diamonds. But one thing is for sure, I'm glad you are MY wife. I'll spend forever correcting every fuck up I've done to you. I'll be the slave to my queen.

P.S.
If you slam me any during this 'divorce' don't feel bad.... I deserve every single one of them. Make sure to make them look real. ;)

I love you Isabella, I truly do.

Love Alessio."

I place the letter into my wallet and put it back into my handbag. I lay in my bed thinking about a certain male. As I said before I should hate him, I should make this divorce real. But I can't. Alessio gives me hope that we'll get out of this sticky situation. Alessio is like my home, a home I'd longed for. A home I should even feel safe with yet I do. With my final thoughts, I'm sound asleep with Alessio running through my head.