To the Moon//Michael G. Clifford

Tears

(WARNING: EMOTIONAL & TRIGGERING CONTENT)

RYAN'S P.O.V.

Mum and dad have been fighting like crazy and I know that they're not going to our grandparents. Last night while Tara was with Michael I over heard our mum on the phone saying something about signing divorce papers. Then this morning saying how we were going to our grandparents house I knew they were signing the papers today and it just got worse. I told them that I didn't want to go with them so they decided to drop me off at Mikey's since Tara was there.

Luke opened the door for me and screamed to tell everyone was here. He turned back and smiled at me and that's when I lost it. My knees buckled beneath me and I fell straight into Luke's arms and cried. I felt him pick me up bridal style and carry me over to the couch. He sat down with me on his lap and I just continued to cry. Luke didn't say anything he just ran his hands through my hair in a soothing matter and just kept whispering calming things in my ear.

"Ryan, what's wrong? Are you hurt? What happened?" Tara bombarded me with questions for the first time I looked up and I saw everyone looking at me. I looked into my sister's eyes and tried to calm myself to tell her.

"M-mum and d-d-dad aren't going to grandma's." She had a confused look on her face as I continued. "They're g-going to sign divorce p-papers. Then she said," I took a deep breathe. "Then she said that she's going to take all of us and move to the states to get away from dad." I felt Luke's grip on me tighten. My sister was trying to stay calm for me but I saw the hurt in her eyes. "We leave in a month." I started crying even more and dropped my head into the crook of Luke's neck. I heard even more cries and I instantly knew it was Tara. And I couldn't believe this was happening.

Once again Luke had carried me into another room and set me down on the bed. I looked up and saw him closing the door.

"Luke what are you doing?" He didn't answer, he just climbed on the bed with me a pulled the duvet over us.

"Come here." His arms were opened wide and I didn't think twice to go straight into his arms and cuddled into him. His embrace was warm and comforting. "Everything will be okay. I promise. Everything will get better." he whispered and placed a kiss on my forehead. I fell asleep comfortable in his arms.

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I woke up to Luke's face very close to mine. He must of fell asleep too. I sat up very carefully so I wouldn't wake him. That's when all the memories crashed back and I started crying again.

My parents are divorced. I might not have one of them in my life anymore. What made them get a divorce? Was the spark just gone? Did mum or dad cheat? Was it one of us that drove them away from each other?

Questions just racing through my head as I cry harder. I get up and run out of the house before anyone sees. And that's just what I do. I run and run and run util my feet can't carry me anymore. I fall to my knees on the ground. I look around at my surroundings and I realize were I am. I'm at the beach were mum took us to tell us that she was pregnant with Madi. No one was here and I just let out my emotions.

"AHH!" I scream and cry out for no one to hear. No one to rescue me from all the pain I'm feeling inside. I open my eyes and see a glass bottle. I know I shouldn't but it seems like the only way to get my problems to leave my system. I picked up the bottle and smashed it against the ground and it shattered. Grabbing the sharpest piece I saw and drug it across my wrist as fast as I could just to get it over with. I did it again and again until there were six cuts on my wrist.

"Ryan?" I hear a slight whimper. I turn and see Michael. "Tara was worried sick. We've all been looking for yo-" He stopped and I knew he saw my wrist. His cheery face from finally finding me was instantly dropped. "Why? Ryan, why would you do that to yourself?" He crouched down by my and lightly grabbed my wrist in one hand and the broken piece of the bottle I used to cut myself with. "Ryan, this did not need to happen. You are stronger than this," he throws the broken bottle piece to the side and picked me up. "How did your tiny legs bring you all the way here? Ryan, this is almost out of town."

"I just ran and ended up here...how did you know to find me here?"

"I just let my self walk and ended up here kind like you." he smiled at me. "I'm glad that I found you before you did anymore of that."

"I'm sorry"

"Shh. It's not your fault just relax while I take you home. Promise me you won't fall asleep though, okay?" I nod my head. I just think about everything that has happened in the span of 24 hours. To much has happened today. I just let out a silent sigh.