You knew you were bleeding internally in your chest area, yet you refused to go back to the butterfly estate with them.
You needed some alone time.You sat on a cliff watching a busy village from afar. You ate your rice balls as Kuro decided to join you.
"Y/n..." Kuro wanted to comfort you but you hold his peck shut with your thumb and index finger.
"I know what you want to say Kuro...," you released his peck again, "... A reason why I prefer going alone to missions..."
You sighed and Kuro listened to your thoughts, "Even though I just met the flame hashira, it was still to sudden that he died... Perhaps if I was more stronger he could live."
After a short silence Kuro started to talk after making sure you were finished, "Yn, you know that this is not your fault... But you do need some people in your life..."
"I figured it out too..." you sighed again, "It does feel different having some people around... Kuro, do you think I'm heartless? Death is something I've seen a lot during my past missions and it meant nothing to me, but now it's different... just like how I've seen it for the first time."
"You had a good reason for it." Kuro replied, "But what about Tanjiro, Nezuko, Zenitsu and Inosuke?"
"Until then, I don't think I'm able to take it..." you closed your eyes, "Damn... I sound so weak...but just leaving now makes me feel guilty."
Kuro thought for a moment, he doesn't know how it felt like to lose someone but imagining losing his owner, you, he would be very sad, and thinking leaving you and never seeing you again with your reason will only make him more anxious, "Then just stay and protect each other? Together?" that was the best choice he could think of.
"Perhaps this is the best choice I can make now..." you grabbed two more rice balls and placed one in front of your crow, "let's stay here a bit longer."
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Thankfully, no one questioned your actions but you did get some scoldings for not taking care of your injury immediately.
Zenitsu and Inosuke attended to missions a few days later and now it was only you and Tanjiro in the hospital. He was able to talk to you for hours even if you didn't talk much and you were glad that he was here. He cheered you up from time to time.
You weren't able to fall asleep again. It was better before, but the sleepless nights returned.
You stepped outside and closed the door quietly behind you.
'Why not train if I can't sleep?' you thought and after finding a nice spot where you can't disturb anyone, you started to wield your wodden sword.You got startled as you swung the sword to your right side pointing at Nezukos face and you quickly retreated it.
"Nezuko?" you asked surprised, "you can't just go near someone who's wielding their sword, you almost got hurt."She crossed her arms and raise an eyebrow, she was asking why you were outside at this hour.
"Same reason, I can't sleep." you answered. A sudden flapping above you caught your attention and Kuro flew down landing on your reached out arm, "Caw-"
You immediately hold his peck shut, "Psh! Quiet, the others are sleeping!""Y/n, what are you doing out here during this hour?" he asked as you let him talk again.
"I could ask you too, why you're here? Probably not a mission since I lost my sword." you asked.
"What do you think? How can you let me rest if you're not taking care of yourself!" your crow said while lifting his head.
You noticed Nezuko staring at Kuro so you moved him closer to her so she could pet him. Nezuko stated to pet crow with a closed eye smile.
"Hey! Are you listening to me-" you held his peck again shutting him down.
"I said not so loud." you warned.
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"Y/n, didn't you sleep last night as well?" Tanjiro asked concerned after noticing your dark circles.
"Uh... Yes?"
After some weeks, you began to train again with Tanjiro and soon, Kuro visited again.
"Caw! Your swords will arrive soon." Kuro informed you.
"I have a bad feeling about it..." you said honestly.
Tanjiros swordsmith started to chase after your friend while you looked at your swordsmith in fear expecting the worst.
"If you loose your sword one more time..." your swordsmith warned, "you won't receive any more swords!"
With that being said he dropped your new forged katana in your hands and left. It wasn't that bad you thought.You attempted to go inside leaving Tanjiro and his swordsmith alone.
"Y/n!" Tanjiro ran towards your direction wanting you to help him."Don't drag me into this!" you shouted but it was too late, he hid behind you and as you faced his swordsmith again, you quickly moved your palms together blocking the knife right between them. The knife was only small inches away from your face.
"Uh... Haganezuka-san! Let's talk things out shall we?! I bet you're tired after running right?!" you said panicked.
"Ugh you too!" he shouted in your face, "I don't know why he's so calm about it, you broke his sword too! If he's not going to punish you himself, I'll do it then!" he raised his other knife in his free hand and Tanjiro thankfully reacted quick pulling you by your haori to avoid the stab. Now, the two of you were running away from him.
After some hours of running, you realised that Haganezuka will continue chasing you two not matter what, so you grip over your new sword tightened.
Breath of dust.... Deceived eyes.
You grabbed Tanjiro by his wrist and escaped while the deceptive images of you and him remained. Haganezuka cut through your figures but you two vanished. "Huh?!" he grew frustrated and ran to another direction to look for you two.
After hearing his retreating footsteps you and Tanjiro finally exhaled through your mouths after holding your breaths.
You lied on the ground gasping for air, "Oh god... you didn't receive your sword yet, right?"
"No..." he answered sitting on the ground.
You sighed and stayed on the ground for a few more minutes before getting inside again. Fortunately, Aoi knew a way to calm the mad swordsmith down.
"Y/n, Tanjiro, mission togehter!" Tanjiros crow announced at evening and Kuro followed too.
You looked at Tanjiro who was ready like you, "Let's go!"
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FanfictionA demon slayer fanfiction. [Nezuko x male reader] The darkness was your world. You lost everything so you became a demon slayer in order to prevent the disaster for other families. At the same time you were scared to get attached to anybody because...