Two-faced
One is smiling
Feeling happy
Looking like a perfect little girl
Who hasn't been ruined by this world
One is crying
In a pit so deep
I can't climb out
I can barely breathe
The smile is fake
The tears are real
The happiness is a little snake
Spreading the poison
As the tears are crystal diamonds
Scraping down my face
Into an ocean of blood, I cried
All alone
I ask you to meet me at midnight
I waited for you
But you never appear
You never show
You were never even there
Not a single trace
I have to pack up everything I am
Just to move on
I have to change
I try for the better
Just so I can lean on
Just so I have a hand to hold
I lost sight of myself
As you leave me, feeling so cold
Cold to the touch
I can't help but tremble
Shivers running down my spine
You ask if I'm alright
I say "I'm fine, I'm fine"
"Everything is fine"
That's a lieI'm not fine
All I do is hide
I hide in the darkness that seems so safe
Just from a distance
A distance so far away
Then I get into reach
Now I'm in so deep
I don't find a point in making amends
I don't find a point in being me around my friends
Because I don't know what I am
I don't know who I am
I can't understand
No one understands
I fall in love
I'm overjoyed
Then I'm in tears
Because I was played like a child's toy
I'm lost in the void
It's hard to avoid
All these issues
They surround me
Because when you come around
And I begged
For you to please not
But you did anyways
You dragged me down,
To the Deep End
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Truth | Poems & Short Stories
PoetryThis is an anthology containing a bunch of poems and short stories I've written. TW: Contains depictions of Depression, Anxiety, Abuse and Trauma