The Guy i use to love

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There's this guy i used to love since grade 3, and i never got a chance to confess to him because, he'll probably just make fun of me and say it to the whole school. Lets call him A, so A and i both play badminton,mostly because i only joined the badminton club because of Him.

He was a very mature and childish personality actually i don't know how to express that but, he loves to tease people, especially me for being the only girl in our classroom. He is a year older than me , and the age gap is not too big, but the thing is i don't really like badminton, I only joined because of Him as i said earlier, i started to do things he likes just to impress him, i hated it.

I love him, but I don't think he thinks of me that way, he would tease me, by making jokes that i was trash and i guess he also teased me because of my skin color. (PS: were both 🇵🇭 and he's light skinned im morena) and I just letted that go since I thought of it as just a joke.

I guess i was wrong, soon i, started to loose some feelings for him, but then a rumor came out that i like A, because of that i went really berserk on denying it, I don't want to feel the embarrassment

And then soon after, the rumor is gone now, I thought his friend ( lets call him G )
Was a much better guy than him and maybe much nicer than him, so I started thinking about G
He is also part of the badminton club, its also the reason we talk to each other and got close for a bit

But after he graduated he changed, I thought he liked me because, he always feel shy around me and his friends keeps teasing him because they said he has a crush on me, but that all changed after they graduated, I reunited with them and realized he now liked someone else, and A now has a girlfriend
That hurted, but i guess it's also my fault for falling in love to them. And thinking they would also feel the same for me. I guess im too Delulu😅

And G also made fun of me, when I heard him say that, i felt hurt, so so so so so hurt.

Now im trying to let go if them and, im losing hope
Its hard letting go, but its also a part of growing up i guess.

                                           Bye