DUSK TILL DAWN

Ep:10 - "Adolesences is an age of storm and stress"

She found out? about our so called situationship. My class Teacher, found out about me and dawn. She called me and told," He is a useless rover, you are a christian and you are not supposed to go around liking boys so low as him. You will loose your value in this so called love". I was mad at the moment, later did I knew she was absolutely right. I tried to act dumb at first by saying,"I don't know what you are talking about, mam?" as she replied,"Dont you know your lovely dawn, break of the day?" I insisted on knowing him but not liking him.

But I failed miserably, I just had to accept the fact infront of her for her to reveal the name of the betrayer. It was a girl from my class, whom I considered as a friend. I stormed towards her, grabbing by the collar to ask what did I do to deserve this betrayal. Her reply still pisses me off, the teacher was like her mother. Mother? who looks at her children with disgust just for a mere unthrift love.

The day I went home in the small Krishna bus, the one with AC. Tim made the zoo alarm when he saw me at the bus stop, the evening. I got a seat beside Judith while the golden trio didnt. She suggested me that it was the best time to get my revenge on the boys for publically teasing me. I sighed signalling the scene one of my act. ,“aren't the boys in your section hens?” I asked Judith loud enough for them to hear. “yes, it's unavoidable!”, “I am worried about myself, my classmates and how will they tolerate them next year?” I cooed. 

I heard few muffled whispers, more like groans on ‘how they were trying to hold back from saying anything?’. I played on the same topic few times where Judith played along by responding attentively. As they saw that it was inevitable, Dawn responded,“ seems like a bull will enter our territory”. I fumed until I reached home, suddenly. I like a rock goat sprang at the ground and walked away like a child women.

In the following day, thou l was not in the bus where Judith advised Tim to not tease me anymore for having a mere crush on his golden bestie in the past, if I could put it all together. I had lost feelings for him last day as I was talking to Sara one of his old cheer mates said that he had a girlfriend. I knew then that he was totally uninterested in me. I hate him for lying when I asked him wether he had a girlfriend to which he politely denied, for giving me loose hopes and breaking my delusion and come down to earth.

The thing was that he supported me back then saying,“it is all over, why tease her.” even I myself was awestruck.  He was nice to every girl, thou most does not realise that I used to do and tried to gave him the same treatment. It was then I realised ,“ you are just a dream out of my league”. Everything happens in the bus, that Bus which brings alot of funny memory of myself along with it.

And on the seat of memories, I lay hollow. And you know what happens when wind comes? I get blown away from the seat. I could settle done on any other material but every time I get blown away and now I am tired. I want to fill myself not with love but with ambition. I cant afford to get hurt again? can I! I decided to study from now onwards, to be productive and not play a loosing game. Switching my prime cell from love to ambition.

Next day Julia came to me blushing saying that on the bus, Dawn asked her,“ what happened to your eyebrows?” tracing them. “it had been like that from childhood”. I was totally dumbfound not on why he did that but on why she was telling me that when I didnt care. But I was rooting for them as to get rid of him and his leftover lingering feelings buried deep in the black oceans of me.