Uglydolls | Lou x Mandy | Don't Deserve You

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟏

Lou's POV:

"Thank you, thank you, everyone"

I bowed at the audience as they continued to clap for me.

I just finished singing a song for them as it was my way to welcome the new batch of dolls.

I then went to the back of the stage and the curtains closed behind me.

I then took a deep sigh.

"What a day..." I said in a tired voice.

I looked down and stared at the ground for a few seconds.

"Great song as always, Lou," a voice said.

I look up to see the spy girls walking towards me. The voice belonged to Kitty.

I straighten my posture and put my hands behind me.

"Yeah, you were on fire!" Lydia cheered.

"Yeah, totally," Tuesday agreed, swinging a hand.

"Why, thank you, girls. As always, you three are always lifting my spirit and I thank you for that," I replied with a smile. 

The three of them just gave me a smile.

"And as you know, I always have to be perfect. Because for them, I am the perfect example of a doll that a kid wants," I confidently said while putting my right hand on my chest.

Even though...I'm not...

They laughed.

"Yeah and speaking of which, you should go home now, Lou. It would be best if you had your beauty sleep," Kitty said, putting a hand on her hip.

"And maintain your perfect face!" Tuesday added, flashing a smile with her hands on her cheeks.

You mean...maintain being perfect, right? Gosh, I hate that word...

I crossed my arms and laughed.

"Of course, Tuesday," I faked a smile.

"Good. Come on, girls. Let's go home as well," Kitty said.

She then walked away followed by Lydia and Tuesday.

"See you tomorrow, Lou!" Tuesday waved.

I waved back.

"Yeah..." I quietly said.

I then put my hands to the side and looked at the ground again. I took a sigh for the last time and started walking to my mansion.

Later, when I got to my mansion, I automatically went to my room and sat on the bed.

I clasped my hands together and stared at the ground once again.

My mind was filled with thoughts once again. For years, my mind has been filled with the same questions every day.

Am I really not allowed to go to the big world? Am I not worthy of a child's love? Is my life nothing but loneliness and misery? How long am I going to pretend that I'm ok? Will I ever find love?

These thoughts kept haunting me ever since the day that I was told that I'm a prototype, and that I'm not allowed to go to the big word.

I sighed and lay myself in bed. I looked at the ceiling and brushed my face with my hands. I sighed again and turned to the window.

I saw that it was already night time then I looked at the clock that was on top of the drawer beside my bed. It was already 7:00 pm.

I looked back at the ceiling.

I don't feel like sleeping right now...

I then sat up.

To be fair, when did I start sleeping early?

After the bots revealed to me that I was not allowed into the big world, I stopped sleeping early. Because most of the time, I overthink about the future. So yes, my beauty sleep was already ruined years ago. And kitty's reminders are no use.

I got up from bed and went out of the mansion.

I decided to take some fresh air at night like I always do. And by taking some fresh air, I meant to overthink more. How hilarious, right?

But hey, at least walking at night helps me lessen my negative thoughts and unanswered questions. So for me, this routine is still worth it.

As I was walking, my hands were in my pockets and my gaze was focused on the ground.

A few minutes later, I stopped in my tracks in the middle of the institute. I looked up and saw the stars in the sky.

"I wish my life wasn't boring..."

I then looked down with a sad face.

How ironic. As someone who is perfect and famous in this institute, I should be happy because I have everything, right?

Wrong. I don't and I probably never will. And as for me being the "perfect" doll, that was a lie as well.

How can I be perfect if I can't even go to the big world?

No one knows this side of me. Not even the spy girls and I don't think I will ever tell them.

My life is nothing but lies...

"Excuse me, are you ok?" a voice suddenly asked.