Was this the right way to go...? Should I turn back...?

He's driving me crazy!

Diary entry, one.

Dear diary, this is Barry. He's driving me crazy! I can hardly focus! I haven't been able to sleep properly, eat, drink, study, and more! My mom this it's crazy, my dad doesn't believe me not one bit... I have tried talking to him when he and I are alone, but I can't without showing my feelings! I don't have anyone to talk to. And I'm going insane. I can't focus no matter how hard I'm trying!

Tuesday

Mary and I are sitting in science class. I'm conveniently in the front row. Barry is also in that class. But behind me. I can hear his breathing. Slow and steady as it is. Mine is fast. not slow nor steady. I am nervous. a reck. I can't show it on my face. if I do, I ask to use the bathroom during those times I'd fix my face and hold my composure down till I was out of school and away from him. But sadly, this day was different, and Mary knew something was off with me. She asked to talk during free period at 11:30, which was also lunch. she chose to have us meet in the headmaster's 2nd room. where we'd be alone to discuss my issue...I'm nervous, scared, not ready for what she is planned to say to me. I can't help but only think of Larry that whole time until lunch came upon us. His breathing patterns, his cute face, glasses, and everything he did was adorable and simply irresistible. I couldn't ignore him even if I tried! I looked down at my watch and relised the time, it read, "11:27". Moments before I had to meet with Mary. I decided to head that way a few minutes early knowing that by the time I got there it would already be 11:30. I couldnt help but think of what Mary would think of when I would tell her I loved Larry.

11:31pm (lunch time)

I made it to the headmaster's 2nd office. walked inside and saw Mary sitting at the desk. she looked sophisticated and ready to be told some tea about what's been going on with me. As she patted the seat Infront of her on the other side of the desk, I strutted toward her to sit down. I nervously sat down infront of her and awaited the first question.

Mary <> So? Whats been going on that you keep leaving to go to the bathrooms for? Is it because of the odor in that foolish class-

Barry <> No! No not at all ha-ha. Its uhm something different....and I'm quite nervous to tell you.

Mary <> well get talking I am waiting!

Barry <> I haven't been myself for a couple reasons but.... UGH! I just can't explain it! It's so hard I can't just say it without my feelings running loose.

Mary <> feelings?

Barry <> yes. I.....

Mary <> I?

Barry sat there for a second. And questioned what he was about to do before he said it.

Barry <> I have a crush on the nerd.

Mary <> What?

Barry <> I have found myself with feelings for the Nerd. I can't help but like Larry.

Mary sat there silently trying to think of words to respond.

Mary <> I can't believe you Barry. Falling for the nerd?! its completely rediculus! You need to get a hold of yourself.