love the way you lie (nash grier cameron dallas fanfic )

leaving with nothing goodbye

Austin.
It looked foggy outside and I was freezing. I walked to my dresser and put on a beanie, leaving my sweatshirt and sweatpants on. I clicked on my phone and it was 7:30. I didn't get much sleep last night at all. But I can't fall asleep anyway. I walked into the kitchen and turned on the coffee pot. I needed something to wake me up. All though I'm sure when the O2L, cameron and..kenny wake up it won't be hard to get myself woken up.
I sat there for hours. Doing nothing but stareing out of the huge window that covered the back wall of our dining room.
He didn't even give me a chance to explain. I explained to kenny I loved nash, but nash wouldn't let me prove it. I only didn't tell him about our past because it was over, and they are bestfriends.
I didn't know what to do. I just sat there thinking of everything I could do to prevent it.
"Austin?" I hear I look up knowing the voice completely. Kenny.
There was no use even yelling at him. Yeah he's a big part of this, but I just have no energy.
"Yeah." I said starring at my coffee cup that's almost empty.
"Is know this won't matter, but I'm sorry I screwed you and nash up." He said sitting in the chair beside me turning it my direction.
I nodded not even saying anything.
"And even though I broke your heart..and acted like a prick about it, I still care about you with all my heart."
I looked up into his brown eyes. And he stared back intently.
"You didn't break my heart." I said my voice cracking,"I thought you did, but now I really know what a broken heart feels like."
He looked to his feet and shook his head in agreement.
"Can I fix it?"
I looked into his eyes in diabelief, but before I knew it he slowly pressed his lips against mine kissing me intently. I closed my eyes and kept telling my self to pull alway. Kissing him made the memories come back, even the hurtful ones.
I pulled away ashamed in myself. Even though I'm single.
I stood up pushing my chair in. "I-" I couldn't even finish my sentence I walked into my room and layed on , my bed stareing at the ceiling. I missed nash. That's all I took away from that kiss, was feeling nash in my head telling me, dont, I still love you, which made me want to kiss back even more, but I knew everythimg was a lie.
I sighed and stood up. "Okay."
I walked to my suitcase and threw my clothes and stuff into them. Everyone was asleep so i could pack my truck except kenny, but what was he gonna do? I grabbed the boxes I didn't unpack yet and walked to the front door opening it and laying them in the bed of my truck. In about 20 minutes I finished loading everything. I put on ripped black skinny jeans and left my sweatshirt and beanie with my hair straightened.
I grabbed my mac book and got the number for the apartment that was on hold for me, in LA. I had a plane ticket just in case that hasn't been scheduled yet. And called the both of them.
"Yes." I said into the phone a tear falling from my face.
"That's the apartment. Mhm. I'll pay 1st months rent now."
I reached into my wallet and took out my debit card giving her the number.
*******
1:16 pm.
I was standing by the door waiting on cam to wake up when he finally did and walked into the living room.
"Austin what are you doing?" He asked confused.
"Cam..I'm moveing to LA."
His eyes widened,"what no..austin it's just a-"
"It's not just the break up its everything. This town, my dad, my sister, kenny, nash, everything carries a bad memory." I said trying to sound like I'm not on the verge of tears.
"But there's good memories too..austin..your my bestfriend..please." his voice cracked as he stood across from me. His words broke me. I felt terrible and started to cry.
"I am your bestfriend, and I'll always be" my voice was shakey and I could barely speak right without a huge lump forming in my throat makeing me won't to cry my eyes out,
He looked at the floor and I hugged him tightly.
"At least I'm getting what I always wanted," I sighed walking to the door putting my hand gently on the handle,"I just didn't think it would hurt this much."
He came up to me again wrapping his arms around me and kissed my cheek.
"Love you cam."
"Love you austy." He winked trying to smile but his eyes were watering.
And that made me lose my cool. I wiped under my eyes and walked out of the door.
"Don't forget to always order pizza from two diffrent places." He yelled out to me.
I laughed and held up the thumbs up sign,"for a variety."
He nodded smiling back at me.
I got into my truck giving cams house one last look. Taylor already flew back to his house in LA yesterday. So at least I wouldn't be completely lost. I drove down the road passing my house and nashs..i contemplated if I should tell him, but he's pissed at me. I drove occasionally having tears run down my face. But I held them down. And walked to my plane handing her my ticket. And went to my seat. K3. Then flying away meant it's over, not looking back.