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November 14th, 2023

-To Build A Home by The Cinematic Orchestra-

As of November 7th, 2023 I moved into my first place on my own. While it is the best feeling in the world knowing I did something I had always dreamed of for as long as I can remember; It is also one of scariest moments for me. However there comes a point in life where you have to jump the hurdles that would be your fears, and doubts. In hopes to become more successful and learn more about yourself and to be more open to the world. This experience will have its ups, downs, and sometimes you'll feel discouraged.

It has been one week since I have moved into a new place and I enjoy being able to fully decide where I want things to be and having more space for the things that represent bits and pieces of my personality. Make decisions about my space I've never enjoyed so much creative freedom with so much space. It's a great feeling. Meticulously deciding what to put into the different areas. It's all so new even though I have lived in an apartment before just never on my own. 

While I can go on and on about the things that are incredible about it there are also things that are so bright and shiny about it. Such as the price you have to pay for a place like this, being sick isn't an option. Working full time is essentially the only way to make it work right now until I learn more about other options, potentially remote jobs. Sometimes feeling like full time wont even cut it to be honest. It's like paying an arm and leg for decent living. 

Although there is still so much time for me to learn a lot things, which is the goal. There are so many things I could be learning and potentially getting really good at to make extra money. There's a lot of different options these day's, maybe I could even diary my experience here; The good, and the bad. Aside from that I have to set goals for myself to achieve so I don't overwhelm myself or burn myself out because I won't lie being an adult isn't easy. There are a lot of responsibilities aka bills.

Not to mention if you're someone like me who doesn't necessarily like to be alone you have your animal or animals to help make life a little easier. Which for me my cat makes a big difference to my emotional well-being. Anytime I feel alone or I am getting overwhelmed I just hug him and remember I am not alone ever. Sure he can give me a hard time sometimes but it's worth it. He makes me feel loved all the time, purring every morning when i wake up and cuddling with me. He makes things easier. 

I want you all to take away from this if you are stressed out about things like bills, or your financial situation, never be afraid to ask for advice, there are people help you, just search and search to find them. Finding direction in this world is really hard, and financing can be especially hard when you have no to help you if you don't understand it. Unfortunately there are those people in the world who will tell you they will help you and then end taking your money, which is so disheartening. As if it isn't already hard as is.

Just remember everyone be careful who you ask for help because sometimes the people you trust the most can take everything from you. If that hits you deeply I'm sorry but unfortunately that is the world we live in, but there are also a lot of incredible people in the world who'll truly want to help you. I have met a lot people and befriended and defriended a lot people. Sometimes the ones I stop being friends with is simply because we just aren't as close. For those people I cherish ever moment I've ever had with them. 

As for the people who I am currently close with and call my friends I couldn't ask for better friends to be there for me when I am going through a hard time. They all are so supportive and try to be positive even when I'm not and remind me I am supported and appreciated and I couldn't thank those people enough for reminding me of that because I often forget. Life gets especially busy when you're an adult and sometimes you forget there is still people there for you. Which for each and every single one of them I am there for them as much as I can be as well because they all deserve to have someone there for them as much as I do.

I know this has spiraled into many different topics, but all generally trying to come across with the same message, we all struggle every day. Some just find dirty ways to get themselves out of those situations. There are those of us however who work really hard for what we have. If you apart from that group like I've said before you are alone in that I'm sure there are a lot people who can relate with you in that sense. I'm someone who always to tell others to reach out if they need someone there for them.

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