Non Existent

Prologue

Dark and light but no light. Here and there but no there. Happy and sad but no happiness. To be existent isn't an option for me. I never had that option. From the day I was born never was I given the chance to have a normal life nor a normal existence. Born into the darkness, never have I seen the light. I do not chose to see the light. The night is where I was born and the night is where I live. The night is where I will continue to live the rest of my horrible days. Cursed at birth. I will never die. I will live my life as a 23 year old as my appearance will never change. My appearance will never change again. The locks of silvery white upon my head were once Brown. The crystal clear blue orbs that once occupied the holes in my face are now a light shade of gray. I feel like I look scary. I have never been to school but I know more than you'd expect. I live like a hermit. A smart and quiet hermit. Yes I do go out into the world. Yes I buy food and clothes and have a job. A night job. I wear contacts and dark clothes when I work. No one asks questions and no one finds out my secret. That's pretty much how my life works. I live in a shack. Well, that's what it looks like from the outside. It elongates back into the trees and bushes that surround the outside. I have a closet, a room, a bathroom, a kitchen, a library. I don't cook. I don't sleep. I don't socialize. Making friends is the last thing on my mind, as is the opposite sex. I've seen many girls where I work, but they've never seen me. I live with my thoughts of what will happen tomorrow and what didn't happen yesterday. As much as I hate my life, I try to make the best out of it. But who cares right, I have unlimited lives. But I feel like I'm dying inside.