ALL THE UNSENT LETTERS

Chapter 1

To the boy, I didn't love back
Dear x,
It's been a while since we talked or you visited my town.
I miss you I know I never say that but right now I mean it with all my heart. I have so many things inside my head it is like a cyclone inside with bits of love, regret, and sorrow all together. I don't think if this letter will ever get to you I don't think I will ever post this letter.
And I do not even think I'd be able to satisfy this letter.

You might have forgotten me or have tried to forget me a thousand times you know what I tried it too. I tried forgetting your name that roamed around my head and heart 24/7
I tried deleting every memory of us.
I tried.
But each time I tried forgetting you, I remembered you even more.  It's tragic.
So I quit forgetting your name because I know I can't. So I tried not to remember you.  But every night my eyes would land on the letters you wrote.  I read them over and over again until I  can't anymore. My eyes bleed tears. Write now I'm writing it down i feel like a thousand things but the things I feel the most are guilt and regret
All I do is think about the past.
When we were together we were not like lovers but friends. It meant more than the whole world to us.
It was all my fault, right?
We could have been together if I loved you back.
Why didn't I love you back?

Well, I do love you.  But it's something way more than love. It's something beyond the world that no one can understand, even we can't understand.

"I told you you deserve better
You still said
I was the one
I told you i can't be
Because I found someone
You told me it was good
Even though it was killing you inside
I died too
When I realized "

I have so much to say but I'd say sorry for now
• I say sorry for not being there
• Sorry for leaving you all alone
•Sorry for not appreciating   your efforts
•Sorry for making you love me
•Sorry for not loving you back.

I have a thousand  questions to ask
I'll ask some of them even though you would never reply.
So,
•How are you?
•How have you been?
•Did you eat well?
•Did you sleep well?
•How is everyone?
•Did you miss me?
•Do you still love me?

I hope to see you again someday and ill talk to you all that i can. Ill try loving you then. Forgive me if i fail to do so but i would let you know that i have always loved you with a heart but my mind was unaware of it.
So if we are not destined to be lovers lets be friends and if we can't be friends let's never be strangers until we meet again.

"So if I ever find myself sitting next to you I'll hold your hand
I'll take all your sorrow and pain inside
Ill cry it out at night
Hoping your days to be a little bright"

Yours,
y

"This letter is incomplete just like i am without you."