Behind it

butterfly project

" Umm.." I said, I felt like I was going to cry. I just sat there while he said
"Oh umm, I'll leave now"
As he left I just took my shower as he cooked something. Good he wasn't using the sink. After I was ready. I dressed up and went to my room, but Nathan wasn't there. I looked to my phone and my case was half-opened.
No, no non no no no no no..
It continued in my head and my hands were shaking and slowly reaching out to see if my blade was there.
It wasnt there, I didn't know what to do, I panicked. I went downstairs, I saw Nathan, cooking bacon with eggs. He asked me.
" Do you want some? "
" No, you know I can't eat bacon. "
I said." Right.. Sorry.. Do you want some eggs?"
Why was he insisting me to eat? Or am I being dramatic? And why is he acting normal and strange?
" No thanks. "  I mumbled.
After a few minutes he sat down and started to talk,
" Uhm there's something you should know that I wanted to talk to you about. "
I knew he knew and he wanted to talk to me about it. Of course I panicked I didn't want him to know. He started talking again.
" So do you know what I am talking about? "
I nodded softly.
" Okay, give me your wrists. "
I really didn't want to.
I didn't want him to see.
He again started to talk.
" You know you can trust me. Ill help you in every possibleway aperson can be helped with. "
Hehad a look on his fac, a concserned one. I gave him my hands as I already could see the tears forming in his beautiful eyes.
" When you want to cut somewhere just think if someone that you like or somebody who cares about you or someone who is special to you. If you still want to to, draw a butterfly on the spot you want to cut."
Damn he cares about me.
But I am CONFUSED.
" I don't understan. "
" You don't have to. After you draw a butterfly, put a person's name under, next or over the butterfly. If you do cut, you have officially killed the butterfly. And you can't wash it away, you have to let it fade naturally. If you complete my request, talk to me. I'm here for you and I will be proud of you. "
Everything was just so perfect about him, he always knew what to do I love him. After a few days it was finally saturday. I got invited to a picnic, but I thought only the close people I know where coming. But in reality, there was a bunch of other people that wher from our school. And other people from the other side of the country. They already have graduated and where older than me. We met up in school and went to another ity. It had a big park, so we went to find a good place to sit and after walking for a good 10 minutes we finally found a good place to sit. We ate, a lot, there was about 25 people. And there was more than enough food. And all out of a sudden everybodys smile, just faded. And confused at the same time and then, I felt a tap on my shoulder. I turn around and all I see is..
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A/n: Im so so sorry this is a small chapter, and I promise it gets interesting soooo..