Handsome(boyxboy)

Death OF ME

"GO." I told Robert as he crept to my front door. Every time the hard floor creaked, he looked back at me like this was a bad idea. My heart was thumping against my chest. I knew it was a bad idea, but if he'd move fast enough, he could make it.

I distracted my family by going over into the living room area and blocking the hard back TV. Its big and long, but I sill could block it. "Move Handsome. Can't nobody see through yo boney ass." Hylan yelled trying to push me away. I looked down at my frame and I was small yes, but I wasn't that skinny. I can still take his girl even though I don't want the one he got now. "I was gone tell y'all a joke." I laughed as my mother smacked him across the face for cursing. She start speaking some Spanish, words I didn't even know.

I stood there still laughing as he blocked her licks with his ashy arms shielded onto his ugly face. I don't see what girls see in him. He ain't got noting on me. "The joke is your black purplish eye, now move." He mumbled and kicked my leg after he got beat.

I looked out the corner of my eye and saw that Robert was gone so I smacked Hylan across the head and ran. "Y'all stop that damn playing." My dad yelled sitting half way out his chair like he was about to get up and do some to us. I knew he would so I stepped off. He be ready to straight up box with us and I ain't gone bring that problem onto myself. I went to my room and tossed and turned all night before my heavy eyes became weak, finally settling into rest.

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I got up early only because Hylan bust in my room playing. "Get your culo up imbécil." He pulled me by my legs dragging me off the bed to my carpet. I couldn't even function right because I wasn't fully awake.

I was so angry. I get upset over anything in the morning. I got to go to school, mad. I got to wash up, mad. I got to reply to Robert's good morning text, mad. I got to live another day fighting so hard to hide who I am, and for what. I find myself thinking, why am I really hiding. Well I guess you get the point.

I threw my pillow at him and lied back down on the floor, but he was long gone. I was too lazy to do anything else. I turned over lifting one hand up at a time onto the bed, pulling myself up, but pulling my cover off my bed.

I stretched my ams out and did my normal routine. I walked to the kitchen grabbing me a cereal bar and pouring me a glass of milk. After I was done I washed up and put on my clothes. I smelled to see if they stunk because I put my dirty clothes in my dresser by mistake almost all the time.

I felt a little sluggish today so I threw on anything. I wasn't trying to impress no one, but Robert and he don't care how I look. I sat down in bed and said Good morning into my phone to text Robert. I was that lazy that I didn't even type it. I walked back out my room and saw my mama on the couch and I had to take a second look.

"Ma what you doing here still." "I should be asking you that. And you need to iron them clothes papa. That's how you be going to school? Looking raggedy, embarrassing me." Out of all days she want to be off when I don't feel like doing nothing.

"No Ma. I'm just tired today, that's all." "Take it off, I'll iron it." She took our old ironing board out the closet and I told her that's alright. "Come on now. You came out of my coño. I know what you got." She pointed down there and I frowned.

She was wrong about one thing. I may have came from down there, but she didn't know I had a tattoo, and I'm trying to make sure she don't find out. I took off my shirt first and she filled the iron's water reservoir. She waited till it got hot and adjusted the board down to her height level. Its funny because she shorter than me. She proceeded by unbuttoning my shirt and starting on the sleeves.

"Bruh come on, Gen already called and told me he ain't gone be able to take you." Hylan yelled clearly irritated. He hates being late for anything. But me on the other hand, I don't care if I'm late or in between but I can't be early.