I've always wanted to tell her one thing. A dream I've had since it happened where I got to tell her this thing. "There was this image of you and I. and it goes dancing by. in the morning and in the night time. There's all these secrets that I can't keep. Like in my heart there's that hotel suite. And you lived there so long It's kind of strange now you're gone." I can still remember it like it was yesterday. I can't explain but I wanna try. I had just gotten home from a party with my wife. We were exhausted and went to bed as soon as we got home. A couple of hours later I wake up to a smell. It was the strong powerful scent of smoke. I knew something was wrong. I jumped out of bed and shook my wife awake. We ran out of the bedroom to see the fire had already engulfed the hallway. We had no choice but to go out the window. I grabbed the sheets off of the bed and with my wife right behind me a tied all the sheets together and opened the window. I wrapped her in a wide part of the sheets and started putting her out the window where I saw people already there to help along with a fire truck just arriving. My wife was just about to reach the bottom when something above me collapsed and fell to the ground but also with my wife underneath. She never made it. I always go back to that same dream where I can see her. Another thing I've told her is "I'm not sure if I should show you what I've found
Has it gone for good, or is it coming back around?" It all confuses me because some of it doesn't make sense and it always rhymes. But at the same time it does. Like my brain doesn't understand but my heart does. It all makes me feel like I'm losing. One thing she told me in my dream is "Isn't it hard to make up your mind
When you're losing and your fuse is fireside?"
