Thoughts..... (LOGAN X TYLER SBG)

~Oh Shit....~

"Oh shit" I muttered, they all looked around silent, I look at Logan, everyone's looking at Logan now. Waiting for his response, me and Taylor hold our breath. Logan was picking at his nails as he looks up to me.

His face, I think shocked maybe scared? But mostly awkward. "I-I'm s-sorry, Tyler but I'm S-Straight" he stutters. I could die right now, I could feel my soul leave my body and my heart drop to my stomach.

Taylor shoots Ashlyn look and Ashlyn nods, Ashlyn grabs Logan's arm and pulls him out of the house along with Ben and Aiden, and Taylor walked up to me.

She sat me down on my bed and sat next to me. She was saying something I could hear her though, all I could hear was was his voice.

"Sorry Tyler but I'm straight" it repeated in my mind like a song on loop, how could I be so stupid. Of course he's straight he's not Gay like me.

What was I thinking? That he would love me back? Why did I say that out loud, why did he have to be there, why did anyone have to be there? Why did I have to be here? Why did he have to go with the Emma? Why did I reject that girl at that dance? Why did I go to the dance? Why did I have to go? Why am I here? Why Am I Alive Right Now?

I didn't have an answer for anything, why I was here, why Logan was here, why anyone was here. I hate myself, it's my fault this happened, it's my fault that Logan probably hates me, it's all my fault. I'm so stupid sometimes, I need to just learn how to shut the fuck up.

I need to just- my thoughts were cut off by Taylor, she was yelling my name at this point. "Tyler!" She repeatedly over and over, "Hm?" I hummed, She put her hands to my face, she wiped her thumb,  She wiped her thumbs over my cheek's, I guess had started crying, "Are you ok?" she asked. I paused for a moment, Was I ok? I mean it hurt, it hurt a lot accly , it hurt more than anything has ever hurt before. I shake my head lightly. "Do you need me to do something?" Taylor asks. I think I don't need anything; I need to be alone. "Could you go to the banner's tonight?" I ask, she seems taken back but then stands up and grabs her bag.

"If you need me text me, ok?" She says and I nod, she leaves the room and I hear her walk down the stairs and open and close the front door. It was now just me, just me and my thoughts, but myself, God damn it, why can't I have more than 5 friends'? All of them are busy taking care of Logan and I pushed Taylor away.

God damnit, why am I so stupid? Why couldn't I just keep my mouth shut? Now Logan hates me; all my friends are leaving, and I'm pushing my twin sister away, I'm going to be left alone with nothing, with only myself. Why, just why am I like this?

**Que Why am I like this to play**

Why? Why, why, why. That same question repeated in my head for hours. I turned my head, it was 2:43 am, I needed sleep. I thought as I reached over and turned off my side lamp. I lay here, in the dark, I can hear mine and Taylor's fan on. I pull my blanket over my head, God I'm so stupid.

I laid my head on my pillow and closed my eyes, I tried to fall asleep but ultimately failed, just go to sleep. I repeated in my head, just go to- **Ding** My phone dinged, I rolled over and picked up my phone.

New Message from Crazy Ass Kid

I sighed and rolled my eyes as i opened the text,

Crazy Ass Kid

Knock knock =)

What the fuck is he is talking about? I thought as I heard A small knock at my window.

Grumpy

Don't tell me-

Crazy Ass Kid

Yep, Now oen the windew