Damaged|kth

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It started when we were 9th grade,I met him.

Kim Taehyung.

I never thought I would eventually be close to someone like him,well he is so quiet unlike me i laugh a lot and joke around with my classmates,he was somewhat intimidating for me so I avoided him at all cost

One time he smiled and called me "shari can i copy your homework?"he said that caught me off guard,why?you may ask.

He never smiles at anyone nor talks to anyone other than me since then we got close to one another and we started going home together,having lunch together,and cutting classes together.

I always look at him like my big brother but it all changed when i started falling for him in 10th grade I tried to avoid my feelings for him but it got stronger every time we talk so i decided to confess to him in 11th grade hoping he has the same feelings since we already did the thing.

"I really like you tae,i cant take it anymore"i said looking at him smiling"what?"he asked me looking like he didn't seem to like my confession, making me nervous"i said i really like you tae,i cant take it anymore"i repeated what i had said earlier"shari camellon are you fucking serious right now?"he said looking at me without any trace of happiness in his eyes

"i am very serious"my voice cracking,feeling lost and humiliated at the same time,this is not him this not the bestfriend that i love and cherish"Sorry to say this but we're just friends nothing more" he said looking at my teary eyes"im sorry but i only see you as a friend,a fuck buddy and someone i can only rely on when im in need"he added making my heart break even more

I run away from him crying

That day i realized that i dont deserve someone like him

That day changed my perspective on boys

That day i stopped trusting people that come near me or tried to talk to me

I came home crying not knowing what to do,how can i tell my mother that im 2 months delayed

I started going out with my so called friends, partying,drinking and even trying to do drugs

After a day i peed in the morning not knowing that i'll have a miscarriage

Yes,the asshat got me pregnant.

I know we were too young to do such a thing but you can never control what your body wants and what it needs

Days have passed but i still feel lonely and miserable knowing i lost the one that i love

No contacts,no more lunch together,no more going home together and lastly no more having sex with each other.

i started going to school again after trying to ruin myself

Hearing that he stopped going to school makes me more lonely but happy at the same time atleast i wont see his face anymore,I can finally move on for good

"Hey shari come with us,let's watch street dance in the upcoming fiesta"my so called friends said making my thoughts divert from Taehyung to the said fiesta"sure"i said seriously

"Woah chill out"they laughed making me look at the windows thoughts clouding my mind

Why cant i forget you kim taehyung.