Sanctuary Island (ɢxɢ / ɪɴᴛᴇʀꜱᴇx) REPUBLISHED

13

I woke up from my nap and it was already 4pm. Mahaba-haba rin ang naging tulog ko at hindi ko maiwasang mamula sa isiping napagod ako dahil sa ginagawa ko kanina. Although I was satisfied, but there's a huge part of me felt guilty.

Naalala ko bigla yung libro na binasa ko noon sa simbahan. As stated in the book of Chastity & Religiosity, women are prohibited from masturbating under Catechism rules because the church believes that self-pleasure is a sin and that any kind of sexual acts breaks the vow. That's why Celibacy is seen as one of the most important sacrifices a nun should make for the church because we consider ourselves married to Jesus Christ, and rather than taking a human spouse, we devote ourselves to him and for God.

But guess what? I just broke that important rule now. Dagdag kasalanan na naman ako, at sigurado akong sa impeyerno na ang kababagsakan ko. But who do I need to blame? Myself of course. It was my choice to turn my faith. It was my choice to be dragged into temptation. Kung dati sinisisi ko si Saint kung bakit ako nagkakaganito, ngayon ay binabawi ko na. It was me; I'm the caused of my own problem. Dahil pwede naman akong humindi kung ayaw ko talaga, pero kusa kong isinuko ang sarili ko sa kanya, kay Dane at kay Eden. And now i'm getting addicted to it. I loved the attention they were giving to me. I love the fact that the three of them managed to be intimate with me.....and I'm looking forward to more. Hanggat nandito pa ako sa Sanctuary Island, susulitin ko ang mga masasarap na kaganapan dito kasama ang mga Islanders ko. Kasi kapag aalis nako, balik na ulit ako sa realidad. Matinding panalangin at self confession ang gagawin ko sa kumbento dahil sa mga pinangagawa ko sa islang 'to.

Bumangon nako sa kama at nagbihis. It's still early though, mamayang gabi pa yung dinner date namin ni Eden. I decided to go out and rove around to find a near MilkTea shop. Nagcrave yung tiyan ko ng matamis.

As I locked my cabin's door and walked my way towards the other side of the beach resort, narating ko ang mini beach park na The CamSoda Hub. I felt relief seeing people there were behave. Baka maloka ulit ako kapag may nakita akong nagpupublic sex tulad 'nong nangyari kaninang umaga. That was traumatizing.

I stopped walking in-front of a milk tea shop called TeaTi. Napangiwi ako sa pangalan ng naturang shop, pero hindi nako nagdadalawang isip na pumasok dahil gusto ko ng mag-order ng treats para ma-satisfy ang cravings ko.

Hindi gaano karami ang tao pagpasok ko sa shop at karaniwan sa mga ito ay abala sa harapan ng laptops nila. It was too late for me to realize that it was a workplace café. No wonder it was quiet.

I ordered TeaTi's best-seller club sandwich alongside their best-selling nacho fries and large milk tea. All the while, nag enjoy akong mag snack break habang nanonood ng pelikula sa tv. Thank goodness, may nakita narin akong matinong lugar na pwede kong tambayan anumang oras dito sa Isla.

After minutes of scrumptious snack break, tumambay muna ako saglit para tapusin ang pelikulang pinanood ko. Nang matapos, lumabas nako ng shop at nagtungo naman sa dalampasigan bitbit ang milktea ko.

I was walking along the seashore enjoying the cold wind and beautiful sea waves, when two Golden Retrievers came out of nowhere. Tumatakbo ang dalawang aso papunta sa kinaroroonan ko rason para matumpa ako sa aking kinatatayuan at matapon sa buhangin ang bibit kong milk-tea dahil pareho nila akong sinalubong na para bang amo nila ako. Hindi ako natakot or nagalit, sa halip natatawa pako sa ipinakitang kakulitan ng dalawang aso. They are so cute!

"Hello, furr babies." masayang bulalas ko. I belly rub their tummies and pat their furry heads. Ganitong salubong lang ang gusto ko sa araw-araw. I always loved dogs. Hindi nga lang sila pwede sa bahay namin dahil allergic ang kapatid ko sa balahibo nila. The last time I had a pet dog, napipilitan akong ipaadopt yun dahil nagkaka asthma lahat ng tao sa bahay nang dumating yun sa buhay ko.