noa: the blonde one. masc, harsh exterior but soft on the inside. easily gets caught up in drama. has a tenancy to do stupid drunk things. enjoys sports. extrovert
maddie: the brunette one. soft girl, wants all the love and attention of her girlfriend. gets jealous easily and needs lots of reassurance. reader. introvert.
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Maddies pov:
It was Saturday evening, my favourite time of the week, where me and Noa were able to relax together, calmly and without the looks or judgement of any of our friends. We could be ourselves and do as we pleased, which normally ended up being sitting and doing nothing. Sometimes that made me upset, I loved spending time with Noa and doing everything together, but lately she'd been distanced and almost distracted. It was like there was someone or something else pulling her away from me, but I couldn't pin point what it was. Everytime I asked she put me down, ignored me and said it was just my silly head, but I just knew this time was different and I couldn't let it go.
As I sat and watched her, it was the little things that I noticed, the things she normally only reserved for me. Like the way the corner of her mouth twitched, how her eyes glistened and her forehead furrowed. That's how she used to be with me. But what scared me the most was that there was someone else, someone better and more better suited to her. Maybe someone who wasn't so scared all the time, could stand up for themselves and didn't need constant reassurance. I knew I wasn't good enough for her, she was so pretty, so well liked by so many people, I mean she had friends god. And I was just silly little Maddie, most likely sat alone in the corner reading a book and pretending that the rest of the world didn't exist.
Noa got up off her chair, walking into the kitchen without saying a word and I sighed. I wondered how long this would go on for, if she'd ever come back to me or if this was it, the way we were supposed to end. I don't know what I'd do without her. The past few months I'd grown almost attached,we did everything together. She was my happiness, my home and my safety, but sometimes I feared she didn't feel the same way....
Noas pov:
I got up off my chair, and headed into the kitchen, still looking down at my phone as I went. I tried to not draw too much attention to myself, fearing that as usual Maddie would freak out and start to assume the worst as she always did. That's all we'd done lately, she was for some reason convinced that I'd found someone new, someone better for me than her and I have no idea why. She does this a lot, comes up with silly theories in her head and won't let go of them. Until now it wasn't an issue because I could prove her wrong, but with this I just couldn't work it out, how I could show her that she was it and the only one for me.
That's why I started acting strangely, shut off almost, not wanting to seem different than normal but also not wanting or even knowing how to make things okay. I'd run out of ideas, there was only so many flowers and necklaces you could buy before they meant nothing anymore, a token of some long lost affection. I only had one idea left, and I was truly lost as to what to do if it didn't work.
Maddies pov:
I heard Noa head up stairs again, I was disappointed really that she hadn't come to get me, hadn't taken me with her. It was always like this now. We did everything separately, like we didn't live together and weren't together almost. It made my heat hurt, weep almost ansd grieve for past times. When we'd eat together, cook together, watch tv together and sometimes even shower together. Those were the times, the happy ones when we were okay. When we were happy. Now I spend most of my time alone, whether that be at work or at home. I sit and cry, scrolling through old photos and videos. It's like I'm waiting for her to breakup with me, waiting for her to cheat so we can both move on. I don't want her to but maybe it would be easier.
