If You Stay | ᵐʸᵍ

1.2

Once he closed the door I slowly and painfully took off my clothes and tossed them in the trash. I never want to see them again, they just remind me of this horrible night. I turned the shower on and let the water hit my body. The event that occurred started replaying in my head and I started to cry again.

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| Two Days Ago |

I walked to his house to see him. I was so excited, I hadn't seen him in a couple of weeks. So I decided of my own volition to visit him. Dad had him so busy at the company and I couldn't exactly go up to him to talk to him.

I got to the building and went to his place. When I walked in, it was dark. Like extremely dark, I turned on a light and made my way through. Not gonna lie, I am worried, last time we talked we argued. I was upset, I caught him with a coworker of his in the supply closet when my dad asked me to retrieve some printer paper.

He was recieving a blow job from her and when I walked in, he just stared at me with one hand on the back of the girls head. I remember the tears that brimmed my eyes as he didn't move, only groaned at the girl. I was frozen, I was mad, I was upset and I was hurt. I felt betrayed.

I walked in anyway and grabbed the stack of printer paper and left, slamming the door behind me. Anyways, I was about to sit down on his couch when I heard sounds. Sounds coming from his bedroom.

Curious about the sounds, I stood up and made my way to his bedroom. It was cracked. I heard him. And a girl. I saw them and I wanted to scream. "FUCK, right there, right there. Ahh. Ohh, fuck. Yeeaahh." I saw through the crack. He groaned with his head back and I felt tears brim my eyes again, a single tear fell.

I covered my mouth to make sure he couldn't hear me. I don't know why I'm sad, we aren't even dating. He's made that pretty clear. He suddenly spoke. "On your knees." I heard him command and the girl was eagerly obliging, "yes, sir." I wanted to throw up, i felt so nauseous.

I watched the girl who had blonde hair, perky breasts. They are small, but at least they are perky. Unlike mine. Figures why I'm single. He's constantly telling me I'm not good enough to be loved by someone like him. Someone successful and smart. I saw her get on her knees in front of his dick and without hesitation put him in her mouth. He leaned his head back.

Is she better at that than me? I've never had sex before but I've given him blowjobs and handjobs many times. Once at my dad's company, but other than that he won't have sex with me because he says my body is not fuckable.

I don't know how, but I suddenly fell into the door pushing it wide open and falling on the floor in his room. I felt eyes on me. When I looked up he wasn't happy at all, in fact, he looked livid. Why? Why does he look so angry? I'm the one that should be angry.

Before I could say anything, he pushed the blonde girl away and angrily walked up to me, grabbing me by my hair. He told the blonde girl to go home, and that he needed to take care of the trash.

I'm the trash, I guess. She grabbed her clothes and ran fast. I'm scared. When I was finally on my feet he pulled my head back by my hair, making me look at him. "What the fuck are you doing here?" He yelled at me and I somewhat stood there, frozen. "I-I wanted to see you...to apologize." I said timidly. "You didn't ask me? I was busy as you could clearly see! For fuck sake, you're incompetent, I swear!" He ran a hand through his black hair. "I-I-" I stumbled on my words, not finding the right ones to say.

He smirked at me. "Tsk tsk tsk. Hmm, did you like what you saw?" He taunted me and before I could answer, he spoke up again, "you know what...don't answer that...I'll just show you what you've been begging me for. You desperate little slut." My eyes widened at the thought and my heart hurt at the name calling.