HOLD Me (book 1)

Chapter 3

TYLER PARKER

It was an early morning and I was feeling light as a feather, for the first time ever, I did not think about all the bullying at school, I did not think about my horrible teachers and I definitely didn't think about how I would handle being alone again this year, all I thought about was how my family despite it being split, it was finally beginning to heal and me along with it, maybe with this change I could also start focusing more on my grades, I was smart but with all the trauma and anxiety I carried with me every day last year, my grades almost slipped and I was gonna repeat if it wasn't for my dad going to my school and requesting that I write my exams again.

I was already used the bullying at school, you see I used to have a best friend, his name was Roman, he and I knew each other since we were babies and we were super close well until two years ago where I decided to confide in him about my feelings towards both males and females, I thought since he was my best friend I could trust him, but he shocked me when he threw a punch at my face and called me a disgusting little fairy, he had ended that comment with ' people like you shouldn't exist, you will cripple humanity ', that comment had broke me and that was when the cutting started and the suicidal thoughts consumed my head, I believed there was nothing left for me to live for, my parents where distant and had no clue about it, and the only friend I had, had turned into my bully, I mean I couldn't exactly blame him, afterall I knew who his father was, he was the type of men that would always beat up his son just for showing even a single hint of homosexuality, there was this one time he found Roman and I hugging, I remember Roman had come with a blue eye on his face and he couldn't walk straight, so I never held what he did to me against him, believing that he had to do it or else he would be the one who would get beaten up, but it never stopped me from the depression I was constantly under.

And right now I was preparing myself to go back to that hell,i know I could always tell my dad but I decided since it was my last year it wouldn't be necessary, I would just need to hold on a little longer, I knew I could take it, I just hoped I came out with all my limbs attached though, or with my sanity still in one piece but I doubted that, I already had so much trauma I had to deal with.

After I'm done with my morning activities, I took one last glance at myself in the mirror, i wouldn't say im the most attractive guy in the world but i did have good looks, though they fell on the pretty side, i looked like my dad but with feminine features, they weren't too prominent but you could confuse me for a girl if i actually decided to cross dress for a change " hey slugger, are you ready for school yet " my dad came into my room and beamed at me, he looked happy which made me smile in turn " yeah dad I'm all packed and ready to go"

My dad drives me to school and when we get there its like im hit with all the nerves ive been trying to supress all at once, flashes of images of me being beaten up rush through my brain, making me wince as if in pain " hey bud are you ok" my dad asked, sounding concerned " im fine, just a headache, I'll just go to the nurses office for some pain killers, thank you for dropping me off dad " i kissed his cheek and came out of the car, as soon as i walked in through the school gates all eyes were on me, some looked at me with disgust, others with pity and others just stared just because they felt like they could, it irked me, so i walked faster into the school until i reached my locker, i pulled out all of my books for today and put them in my bag, if there was one thing i taught myself, is to never ever come to the lockers, that's where they always find me.

After grabbing my books i turn to go to my homeroom class but suddenly bumb into someone, making me fall on my ass " damn mate , we seriously need to stop meeting this way, and i was really trying to keep my promise about not breaking your butt again " my breath caught like it did the first time when i heard his voice, the voice i dreamt of last night, i looked up slowly and met with his beautiful eyes" Alexander " the name escaped my parted lips and he smiled, offering me his hand which i took, he was dressed up in a black leather jacket, a while t shirt, black ripped skinny jeans and some black shiny boots, he looked the typical bad boy out of a movie and he rocked the look " hello tyler, i guess we will be seeing more of each other than we thought" he said and my eyes widened, this seriously couldn't be happening, alex was going to see me get bullied and realize just how mucu of a loser i am, that's just great " hey are you ok, i didn't drop you too hard did i " he asked touching the side of my head sofly and brushing my hair strands behind my ear "N...no im good " now i was stuttering, could this day get any worse " HEY GAY BOY, I SEE YOUR BACK" great forget i asked, my body was already shaking, which made alex hold on to me " hey what's wrong, is that guy bullying you" i couldn't look him in the eyes but i slowly nodded " ok let me get you out of here then" he was about to walk with me but Romans voice stopped him " I see we have a new Fag in town, so what's your name twinkle toes" both alex and i turned around to look at roman, alex's hand was still around my shoulder and it seemed like that's where Romans eyes where directed and it seemed like Alex noticed that too " you know if you want someone for yourself you should learn to treat them better than you currently are" i choked on my spit " The fuck are you saying, I'm not fucking gay you peace of shit " Roman was about to approach us until ms Evans showed up " what's going on here, classes are about to begin better head off now" everyone dispersed and so did alex and i " thank you for that" i never had someone standing up for me, then here came a new guy who didn't know me that well but was willing to put his neck out for me.