I Choose Her

She's really gone

♦️Harley Quinn's Point Of View♦️ 

It's been about a week since I've seen Ives. I see her on tha news a lot, though, looks like she escaped tha same night I did. I hate that I left without her. I wish I could go back an' change that but that isn't how time works, at least that is how I learned it. She really did help me, more than I think she'll ever know. Now, she'll never know. I doubt she'll be willin' ta talk ta me. I do still have tha pretty necklace she gave me. I told her I'd never take it off an' I meant that. Joker hasn't even noticed it, he barley pays any attention ta me so it isn't much of a surprise. Ivy would have noticed it, within a split of a second. I miss what we had, I do... but I don't think we'll ever have that again. I messed everything up. I would do anything, ta change what I did, anything. 

🃏Joker's point of View🃏

"Harley! Fetch me my jacket." I shout across the house. 

"Ughhhh!" She groans. I don't know why, but for some reasin, Harley has been so comfortable with me and giving me attitude. I don't know what the Ragweed did to her but this isn't like her... at all.

"What was that?" I yell at her, hinting for her excuse her groaning and complaining. 

"Nothin', puddin'. Nothin' at all. What do ya want fer dinner?" She asks me.

"I want you to get in the fucking kitchen, decide, then cook like you are supposed to."  I say while watching my television. 

"What? Why don't you get yer ass up and cook, little bitch." She growls. I get up out of my seat and crack my knuckles before walking up ti her. She begins to back up, I see the fear flood her eye and I grin. 

"What the fuck did you day to me?" I ask her. Every second I set closer to her skinny, fragile body. Every step I take forward, is another step she takes back. We continue this until we get to a wall and I grab the wrists and hold then against the wall. "Fix your fucking attitude and get in the damn kitchen. Now!" I shout in her face. I see teas  fill her eyes but she hold all of them back before taking a deep breath and stepping away from my grasp. "That's more like it, put some pep in your step. I'm about to go out, you better be done by that time I get back."

♦️Harley Quinn's Point Of View♦️

"I miss Ives..." I mumble to myself as I hear the front door open and close. I step into the kitchen and start cooking Joker's favorites to hopefully get him in a better mood, and finally, just maybe, he'll leave me alone...  As I cook for him, I listen to music, hoping it'll calm my nerves. I walk over to Bud and Lou and let them off of their leashes. I head back into the kitchen snd finish cooking. Just when Joker walks in I finish everything. 

"Ooo, what's that delightful smell?" He asks as he sniffs tha air like a dog.

"I made some bread puddin' fer my puddin'!" I day with the most sincere smile I can give him. 

"Perfect! Plate my food and give it to me." He says while turnin' on tha TV.

"Fuck you, I cooked." I say under my breath and I plate his food and giving it to him. Tha hyenas sit in front of him, waitin' fer him ta at least drop a crumb. My taunts them with a piece and they snap at him. He flinched and groans.

"Ties these bastards up! Get them away from me while I eat."

"Sorry, sorry. Come one Bud! Come in Lou! Mommy is gonna take ya fer a walk! 'Kay? Lets put yer leashes on! We gotta go before it gets darker outside. "I tell the both of them, putting one their collars and leashes. As soon as we step outside a cold gust of wind comes at us. I shutter from the cold as Bud and Lou are ready ta take off. I quickly grab a jacket from the coat hanger an close tha door behind me. I take them for a nice stroll in tha park when I see an old friend... 

"Hey, Calendar man! How's it been." Two face turns around with a smile. 

"Hello, Ms. Quinn. It's been good! How's Ivy?" 

"..." I stare at him for a second and snapping out of a daze I got into. "OH, that Ivy! That one. Yeah, she's... She's good, all good." I'm too embarrassed ta say we had a fallout and it is all my fault. 

Bud an' Lou drag me ta another park of the park. "Looks like I gotta go! See ya later, maybe!" I say, happy I got out of that soon ta be awkward conversation but also disappointed in maself that I can't be truthful ta masf or other people. 

I sigh. An hour passes by before he head back ta tha  lair. I see Joker passed out on tha couch with beer cans an' whiskey bottles in fronta him. I groan as I clean up around here an' wake him up so he can go ta his bed. Once he gets up and leaves I sit down. 

I take deep breathes to have some grasp of self control. I'm not angry, I'm... miserable. I realized what livin' was, with Ivy, not Joker. I took that fer granted. I took ha fer granted... I see that now. I get up from tha couch an' clean tha rest of tha house like I am supposed ta do an' call it an early night. Tonight, it's hard ta fall asleep. I toss an' turn as thought fill my head. I want ta get ha outta my head, but I can't. Well, maybe I'd feel better if I knew she missed me, too....