"Fuck..." Seokmin rubbed his eyes, glancing down at his legs that still seemed to be shaken. He slowly struggled to lift himself off the bed, nearly falling over since his pants were resting at his ankles. "I guess I Should change entirely..." He concluded, sliding his feet from his pants and ripping off his shirt.
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Seokmin hesitated walking into the room with the other members. He could hear all their giggling and laughter, their singing and chatter. He could specifically hear Joshua's.
Fiddling with the ring on his finger, he entered the room, greeting everyone with a large, loveable smile. "Heeeyy!!" He yells, throwing his hands in the air. Everyone stopped to welcome Seokmin, handing him a cup as he set himself down between Mingyu and Minghao. Their bustling chatter continued, everyone already seemed to be a bit tipsy, leaving Seokmin to being the only sober one. Even Joshua seemed drunk.
"Whaaaat took you so long?!" Hoshi yelled nearly knocking over his drink as he went to grab it. Seokmin chuckled, picking up his so he could set up a cheer with Hoshi.
Joshua is a sleepy-giggling drunk, he had been glancing up and giggling in his lap for the past few minutes. Suddenly the clinking sobered him up, stealing his attention away from his lap. 'When did Dokyeom get here? How long as he been here. Wonwoo....Woozi..' Joshua glanced from side to side, Throwing his head back, leaning against the couch behind him.
Seokmin's eyes were only on Joshua. He knew the other members wouldn't be able to comprehend anything, so the staring would be okay. Except, one person.
Woozi was usually in charge of making sure everyone was in bed safely if they ever had a drink since he himself never drank. He was very much sober.
"Dokyeom-shi." Woozi called, holding out his glass of soda.
"Ah- yes!" Seokmin quickly raised his glass, meeting Woozi's.
"You okay? You kinda just walked into a room filled with drunk guys while you're still sober." Woozi responds, sipping on his drink.
"Yeah, yeah, I'm totally fine. Everyone is extra funny, drunk." Seokmin chuckled.
"What were you and Joshua talking about earlier. Clearly, you two were together before coming here."
Seokmin was hesitant to answer. He knew no one was paying attention to neither him nor Woozi. "We were just chatting, both of our luggages were in the same room, so we just changed together, I guess."
"Joshua seemed bothered when he came. Are you sure that's all?" Woozi adds.
"What..?" Seokmin tilted his head, squinting his eyes with curiousity and worry. " He seemed bothered? How? Why?" He asks.
Woozi was pulling bullshit out of his ass. Joshua didn't seem upset at all. In fact, he was completely normal. Woozi wanted to grab any kind of reaction out of Seokmin that he could.
"He wasn't talking as much and just got straight to getting drunk." Absolute bullshit. Woozi sturs his drink.
"I mean- I don't think I did or said anything...We were having a normal conversation like always..." Seokmin dropped his head, sipping on his beer, hunching over.
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Seokmin had Joshua hung over his shoulder, dragging him to their shared room. Seokmin struggled to get Joshua onto the bed. He kept his hands rapped around Seokmin's neck, giggling away.
"You're so sweet, Seokminnniieeee." Joshua chewed.
"Shua-hyung, sit. up." Seokmin stugged on Joshua's shoulders, trying to slip off his shirt.
"Stop..." Joshua refused, turning away from Seokmin. "Stop, don't touch me."
"What? I'm trying to help you...Joshua come on." Seokmin was still struggling.
"Dokyeom-shi..." Joshua calls, lifting his hands up so Seokmin could take his shirt off.
"Yes, Joshua?" Seokmin answers sternly, getting annoyed.
"Are you...are you drunk?" Joshua asks with a cute smile.
Seokmin shook his head, his eyes meeting Joshua's pale and soft looking skin. "No, I'm not drunk." He answers.
"Joshua, did I make you upset or uncomfortable earlier?" Seokmin asks, rubbing his eyes.
"Whhaattt?? No, I wasn't upsseet. What makes you think I was upset?"
"Woozi was saying you were upset when you walked in earlier. Did I do something."
"No. I don't think you did anything... I mean, I did something..." Joshua chuckled, biting his lip.
"No, Joshua. That's not what I meant. Seriously. What did I do?" Seokmin frowned his eyebrows.
"You didn't do anything. Why're you getting so upset." Joshua tucks his knees to his chest, resting his chin on them.
"I'm bothered, I feel like you've been upset since before the concert today." Seokmin continues.
"Okay, obviously I was upset before the concert. But that's behind me." Joshua finally looked Seokmin in the eyes, sobering up.
"Why?" Seokmin asks, sitting back.
"Are you seriously asking me why?" Joshua's tone turned."Dokyeom, I know you're not comfortable with showing genuine affection in front of the others and I respect that but, I'm still allowed to be upset if you pull your hand away or always ask to do things in secret. I get you're not comfortable with it, It's just that /I/ need to come to terms with that."
"Joshua, I'm sorry if my demands for our relationship to be a secret are hard on you, but I'd rather us do everything in secret than get caught. Imagine what everyone would think...Devistating."
"Dokyeom, that's literally all you think about. You're so afraid of what everyone will think. You don't think our members would be accepting? It's not like the past 10 years, has led to no trust between us. And I don't know what we are. You haven't asked me to be your boyfriend, friends with benefits or anything. It honestly just feels you're looking for a fling everytime we sneak away to make out or fuck."
"A fling?? Joshua, you know I have no time for just a /fling/."
"You obviously also don't have enough time to tell me how you feel about me so..." Joshua crossed his arms.
"Joshua..." Seokmin sighed, covering his eyes. "You know I wouldn't just do this with anyone. "
"Okay fine sure, you might not do this with just anyone, but I have to be enough of someone for you to be sincere to. Dokyeom, I love being with you and everything that comes with it, but I hate how there's nothing official about us. It's scary, knowing you seem to genuinely care more about what other's think over what I do." Joshua huffs.
"Joshua, our entire career is revolved around what other people think of us. I can't help it." Seokmin tries to excuse.
"Oh my fucking god. Lee Seokmin, make up your fucking mind. I get that yes you're worried about what other people will think of us but it's not just fucking you in whatever the fuck our relationship is. Whatever, do whatever the fuck you want. Come to me when you're atleast okay with telling one person."
Joshua got up from the bed, grabbing a random shirt in his suitcase and throwing it on.
"Joshua wait." Seokmin follows, grabbing his arm.
"No. Actually. Come to me when you've decided what you want between us. I'm sick of not knowing what I am to you." Joshua shakes him off, opening the door and slamming it behind him.
"Josh-" Seokmin wasn't fast enough to answer.
Once again Seokmin was left alone in the room, but this time truly on his own.
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Romance"No one can know. Not even the rest of Seventeen. What would they think? What would Carat think of us?" "Is that all you care about?" (Currently on the midths of starting school again. Forgive my absence LMAO)
