You Are Not Who I Thought You Were

Chapter 14

Harry Potter

I don't know what possessed me to do what I did, but I know I don't regret it. There was just something about the way Malfoy said it that made me know he was being sincere. Just one look in that man's eye drove all my suspicions to float away.

It was that one thing, the way he opened up to me, that made me discover that yesterday I was wrong, it's not that I'm attracted to his body, but his whole being. The whole shock of that had me staggering from the realization. I quickly let go of Malfoy's hand and rush to the bathroom.

"Excuse me" I mumble under my breath, taking one more look into his captivating grey eyes with blue swirls, resembling the view of the moon reflected from the ocean. I shut the door quickly but silently and slid down the door.

I like him. I can't like him! What will Hermione and Ron say? They will hate me. I can't lose anyone else. I grasp my hair and pull, having the pain be a slight distraction from the events that are happening deep inside my thoughts like a hurricane. Okay, deep breaths, just ignore the feelings, they will soon go away if I don't pay them any mind.

I haul myself off the floor and rinse my face, wishing that the water could provide me with a sense of calm. I look at the mirror once more before leaving this safe place.

When I enter the room again, I see Dr-Malfoy cuddled up with Perseus on his bed. My heart jolts from the view before me, and I can't help but smile as a soft hue of pink coats my cheeks and neck. My smile falls as soon as I realize what I'm doing.

I look at him stiffly as I grab a wand from the table next to my bed. "I'm going to go see Hermione and Ron... I'll be back" I wave awkwardly as I head towards the door. He looks up at me and smiles with a tiny nod.

As I leave the Slytherin house I head to the library, having a feeling that they will be at the library like usual. And as usual, I was right.

Hermione looks up and waves me over, I smile nervously and walk towards them. I plop myself down on my chair and fiddle with my wand as if I'm playing an instrument.

Should I just... tell them? I hope they won't be mad... I look up suddenly as Ron clears his throat. "Harry, mate? Are you alright?" He looks at me with curiosity and concern.

I open my mouth but then close it quickly, not knowing where to start. I look down at my hands miserably. Should I tell them I'm gay? But what if they don't accept me? I can't have that, I'll just tell them about Malfoy. Hopefully, they don't freak out. I let out a deep breath and looked them both in the eyes.

"Me and Malfoy... We became friends" I look at them nervously but also carefully, as if any way that I shape my facial features could set them off. Ron's face goes slightly red in disbelief as Hermione just holds a thoughtful facial expression. "I know that you guys hate him and all but we... talked it out and came to an understanding about the past. I know you don't trust him but trust me when I say he isn't who we thought he was, truly." I say in a slight ramble.

Ron's mouth falls open in a stutter and Hermione is gripping her book tightly, as if that book could save her from the truth I just exposed out into the air. "You guys don't have to say anything! Just please... give him a chance" I give them a desperate look, really wanting my cru-friend to get along with my family. Ron looks at me for another second before letting out a sigh.

"Fine, but one word and I will curse his arse back to his father." Ron threatens. A smile breaks loose on my face as I look to Hermione, she bites her lip and then gives me a reluctant nod. I jump out of my seat and hug them, not understanding why this means a lot to me.

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As Hermione, Ron, and I walk into the Great Hall, I see Malfoy walking sitting with Theo and Pansy. He glances up and our eyes meet as I sit down in my usual seat. I smile shyly as see him wave, which causes his smile to widen. I wave back, feeling pleased that I got to be on the receiving end of that gorgeous smile. Damn... he has me wrapped around his finger.

I look down at my plate with a giddy smile etched into my lips, after a few seconds I pile food onto my plate, feeling quite hungry for breakfast.

I look up to see Hermione and Ron staring at me, their eyes looking slightly questioning. My face reddens at the thought of being caught smiling like that.

Ron leans into me and raises an eyebrow. "I see" he turns back to him food with an all knowing smile. Hermione stifles a laugh as I sit there agape.

Hermione finally laughs out. "That makes so much more sense!" She giggles as Ron hides his smile behind his hand.

"I- what do you mean?" I slightly stutter, hoping they aren't saying what I think they are saying.

Ron starts singing under his breath. "Harry and Draco sitting in a tree" Hermione starts to join in. "K I S S I N G"

I groan and hit my head on the table, want to disappear more than anything.